I found this web site hoping there would be somebody going through the same thing or close to it but do young people never lose spouses by freak accidents? i mean it makes me feel like im for some reason being punished i know thats not true but still...they had a 8 week grief seminar in my town and i thought great people i can talk to but i was the only one under the age of 40 there! not that i want other young women and men go through the same thing ugh i dont know…

Received Eric's stuff today in the mail that his sister had sent me. I must of known it would be here today. I felt nervous all morning and was thinking about it. Part of me was scared to open it because of the emotions that would come from seeing, touching smelling his stuff. I went through the book he was writing in to me. It was obvious how much he loved me, and how much he was looking forward to our future. This makes me so sad and frustrated. I don't think I will ever find anybody like…

Shortly before we got together, my wife gave birth to her daughter, and then put her up for adoption.  She'd known she didn't have it in her to be a good single parent and staying with the father....wasn't an option.  Every year since, around this time, she'd gotten a card from the adoptive parents with pictures of her daughter and an update on how she was doing.  In the last few years, one of the cards said that her daughter was starting to get curious about her birth mother.  As far as I…

On November 27, 2010, I lost my best friend. This past february 1st, would have been our 5th anniversary. February has always been a good month because of my birthday that I share with my sister and Valentine's Day. On february 1st, he entered my life. For over 4 years he has brought me joy, every february was our month. At the stroke of midnight, I always heard "happy anniversary baby" and since he lived on the east coast, I heard it again at 2am. Through out the day, we talked and talked…

This actually happened to me today.

I have been at the end of any rope I can hang onto in recent weeks. Im not going to blame this on the loss of my brother, Lyle in December. Its been a hard road for a long time. I felt as I was walking into my daughters school today that I had lost my Faith. It has never happened to me. When we lost Lyle I felt my Faith solidify. I felt closer to Heaven then I've ever been.

Whitney left her winter boots and glasses at home today.…

Today was a bit of a bad day. Might have something to do with going back to my regular shift which means I worked alone and had time to think. So hard getting use to not checking my phone for messages from him. Im a bit upset because I feel like I need to talk to someone but I dont have anybody to talk to. Nobody on my side gets it, or understands what Eric and I had. So they think I am ok or that I shouldn't be upset. That I only knew him for 7 months and that I never met him in person.…

It just hit me today at work that it was a month ago today that I last saw my wife Ariel, last talked to her, last gave her a hug and a kiss.  She'd said she was going to take off for a few days to sort some things out and would be back in time for going to her job on Friday.  I'd gone in to talk to her that Monday night (January 31st) to let her know that I was kind of scared of what would come of it but that I also still love her and would be here when she got back.  She seemed a little…

I don't think I have cried in 2 days. I guess it's really starting to sink in maybe. I still have moments where I want to cry but it just doesn't come anymore. I think I know now that he isn't coming back. The thought of living without him makes me sick still. Or I see something that reminds me of him makes me sick. Even that is getting easier. I have been going out and doing normal day things. I had to force myself because it is just me, and nobody understands why I feel the way I feel…

Today, I want to jump on a plane and get out of this cold weather. I need beach, sun, and warmth on my soul.  I am 55 yrs old. I did everything I was to do in order to feel better. Meds, therapy, going out with friends.. etc.. But no one will tell me whyyyyyyyyyyy he had to leave me. Why did he have to fall in Lake Erie and leave me and our beautiful children? Why do I have vivid memories of retreving him holding him in the water, and telling him everything will be ok? Why did he have to…

I had no idea it'd be so exhausting going through some of Ariel's things.  I spent a couple hours today with my Mom going through the stuff in her office.  A lot of it was stuff that wasn't real personal to her, old work papers, some internet plans/schemes for work or making money, directions on how to market her business, etc.  Some was, though, and that was the hard stuff.  I found a card the people who'd adopted her daughter sent her about a year ago.  They'd been sending her a card every…

Losing both of my brothers six days apart has been very difficult and incredible!

My mother passed in 2008, than in 2010 my brothers!

I just can't believe it sometimes.

I think i'm doing alright, but sometimes it just challenging.

Prayers for all who are grieving and missing our loved ones.

Take care!

Losing both of my brothers six days apart has been very difficult and incredible!

My mother passed in 2008, than in 2010 my brothers!

I just can't believe it sometimes.

I think i'm doing alright, but sometimes it just challenging.

Prayers for all who are grieving and missing our loved ones.

Take care!

My interest in life is to study the Human Connection.

But that is neither here nor there at the moment.

I have been rather reflective, more so than before. If I want to know love then I have to accept…

As I remember the first kiss we shared

Tears fall from my eyes.

I thought there would be another

Chance for us before we said goodbye ~

I wanted more time to get our love right

I wanted more than one more time

That you held me through the night ~

So many things left unsaid.

So many apologies and love that

Was ours to share.

If only I took the time to say

I love you, I am sorry and I care…