So for now the anger seems to have passed. I am realizing that in order for me to be happy again I must do things to make me happy. I am seeing a phsyc. tomorrow and starting therapy. I am supposed to be on medication as it is and with all of this I think its best if I get back on it. Its been one month today that my baby left me and for the last month I have done nothing. I quit my job and haven't even bothered to look for a part time job. I have gotten a few things taken care of for my daughter and that is something I guess. I am signing up to go back to college next week. I have to make a better life for us.  She deserves that much. The adoption wasn't final for my daughter and now I have to wait until I get done with college to do it because there is no father present. That was a shot to the gut. So was filling for taxes this year because I had to write deceased after his name on all of the papers. His mother is my tax lady so you can only imagine how that went. We;; that enough for now. I should be in bed.