I am tired .. Tired of missing him, wishing he were here. Tired of hiding my tears and crying. Tired of trying to be strong when all I want is him home with me. I can't seem to be able to talk to anyone about my son. the sad thing is I feel like I am offending people when I do talk about him. I understand they just don't know what to say. Because my son was an adult most of the people i know now  did not even know him. so it is difficult for them. most of all I just miss him

Three years ago tonight

The light that was you went out

I was flying away from you

As your soul flew away from us all

I still wonder exactly what happened

Did you know the last time we talked

That it would be the end?

I wish I had

I would have stayed on the phone longer

I would have travelled to see you for one more hug

I would have stayed with you and held you

So you wouldnt have had to start your journey all…

So I am not really quite sure how this website works yet and I also don't know if it is something I think will help me but I figured it wouldn't hurt to try.  My mom died suddenly February 22, 2012.  I know this has been a little over a year ago and some days it feels like much longer than that,  but others it feels like just yesterday.  I don't really think I have had time to cope or really process the situation, everything happened so fast.  First it was the funeral, then easter, then…

its nealy bean a yr sisne u died i no u wod be upset wi me for fealing guilty al the tim i did not no u wear going to die if i stayed wud i hav stopet u from dying the anser is i dnt no

i woz a very lucky to hav a dad who realy cared for us and loved all of us u always did even stood up for us even tht tim wen the family wear after my blood aftr 1 of my cuzens had a stroke 

the day she foned before the stroke she had a go at u for not runing after her thn foned again and had a…

It's been quite awhile since I posted anything or even came to this site. I guess it reminded me too much of my father and the grief and sadness here was too much to bear. I've been keeping busy with home stuff, even tho I still think about my dad every day. I have quite a few pictures of him up in my bedroom, along with things he bought me for my birthday, etc. Every once in awhile strange things will happen in my bedroom...the light will flicker continusly or the tv will go off, my whole…

So it has been over a year since my dad passed away, and it is coming up on the year mark for my mom. To this day it has been horrible. I feel nothing has changed for me regarding the pain I feel and my daily crying spells. People look at me as if I am going crazy and I feel like I am alone. For some reason I just cant "deal" with the loss of my parents. I am looking for anything and everything to help me through this. I even went to see a medium but it was a pleasant experience but I was…

Before my sister's death I thought I believed in God.

Right after her death I was very angry with God. Angry that he allowed that to happen, angry that he didn't help her hold on a little longer for help, angry that he took her. Then I realized that she died because of her boyfriends free will and I know God has no control over free will. And I realized that after what her boyfriend did, if she had survived those stab wounds and lived, she would have had to live with the knowledge and…

i got to finely talk to someone here really a couple of ppl made me believe there are ears out there that listen. 

Ah my dear boy I love you so very very much, I am still here and that seems so very wrong. I miss you horribly and everyday is challenge for me. I am doing the best I can since you have left your little son as well, so just know that I am doing everything in my power for him to be safe and secured and most importantly loved. Your birthday is coming up on March 11th, and I do not look forward to that day without you here. You should of been turning 27, just really starting out your life. Love…

When my mom passed 3 months ago, it felt like my world ended. I always thought we were so lucky to be such a close family, but since my mom passed, I feel so distant from everyone and everything, wanting nothing to do with my dad or brother anymore. My parent's would have been married 33 years this June, and my mom passed in November 2012, the weekend before Thanksgiving. The last time I spoke to my dad was almost a month ago. I'm not sure if it's because he had already joined Match.com a…

That my Mom has been gone for 1 year, and 23 days. I never imagined that I would lose my Mom at such a young age..well even though I'm 23, I consider that young because I don't feel my age at all! I feel like a little girl without my Mom. Of course I've always felt young since I didn't have much of a childhood and my innocence was taken away from me, but since she has been gone, it has gotten worse! During the day, I seem to do ok, since I'm around Step-Dad's family, but during the night,…

When I came home from work yesterday, I got into an awful mood. I started crying and thinking that I don't want to go on and that I'd like to follow my mom and go away with her.

I couldn't stop these thoughts and it was torture. Now I think I haven't got to the point where I'm suicidal, I don't really want to die, so why do I get like that?

Has anyone gone through the same thing?

Mom wouldn't want me to feel like this. She was always a fighter and kept going no matter…

I am new to the group as of today 2/20/13. I hope it is a wonderful experience. My main focus is to deal with the loss of my family especially my mother who passed away on 2/14/2010, on Valentines Day.

Not terribly far from where I live a pregnant 33 year old woman was stabbed to death by a long time ago ex boyfriend. Her young daughter and step-daughter were in the apartment with her when this happened.

I did not know this woman or her family but when I saw this on the news my heart broke. I thought to myself, "What the hell is going on in the world? Where are all of these crazy people coming from that think it's ok to hurt others?!"

I was angry, I was sad, I…

Mom, I never realized how much I counted on you to be happy. Ever since I was born, we were apart just a few times. I don't know another life apart from the one we shared.

 I'm not suicidal, or in deep depression, you don't have to worry. But these days the only barely meaningful thing I've done is going to work. Guess it helps me because otherwise I'd have to be all day at home. Seems like I live because I breathe and I eat and I sleep, that's what life means these days.

 Mom,…

Daniel...

I still don't sleep. I stare at the darkened ceiling, sight blurred by tears. 

I am considering water-proof pillow case's. I had to buy new pillows again on Friday. 

I went twice on Valentine's Day to see…

is it just me or dose any 1 else find thm selfs doing silly thngs in grief buy ther loved 1s thngs or still hoping its a big mistake and thy r going to come thr u the door saying its all bean a big mistake im still hearor u went to sea the wong body it woz my luck alike u saw i no iv bean told wen u breav u will find yore self doing silly thngs