It's been quite awhile since I posted anything or even came to this site. I guess it reminded me too much of my father and the grief and sadness here was too much to bear. I've been keeping busy with home stuff, even tho I still think about my dad every day. I have quite a few pictures of him up in my bedroom, along with things he bought me for my birthday, etc. Every once in awhile strange things will happen in my bedroom...the light will flicker continusly or the tv will go off, my whole power strip in my bedroom kept flicking off the other night like 2 or 3 times....also I noticed my curtains in my bedroom moving ever so slightly, even tho there was no fan and the window was not open...and it wasnt wind type of movement. It moved, then stopped suddenly. Very creepy, but at the same time makes me think my dad is with me, I hope he is. I mean, granted, it could all be coincidence, there could be air coming from somewhere and the electricity in my bedroom could be acting up...but I like to think its my dad :)

So one of the major reasons I came here today is to vent. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of me and stomped on a little then put back inside my body. Back about a year ago, me and my fiancee started adoption proceedings on my fiancees' sisters' 2 oldest children (now 5 and 6, girl and boy). They've been living with us pretty much regularly, with occasional stays at their grandpas (the actual guardian). We got them into school, bought them all new stuff (bed, bikes, dressers, a whole bedroom basically) and they are in no means abused. I love them as tho they are my own, I see alot of myself in both of them. However, last Friday, allegations came from a teacher at my lil girls school that I abused her (grabbed her by her neck) So DHS came and took them and put them back in their grandpa's custody full time. The teacher nor DHS have showed us or mentioned any proof (pictures) all they seem to have is the say so of this teacher. So they are giving us the run around and making us do a bunch of stuff for no reason. They made the grandpa pay for doctors visits out of his own pocket, and they are visiting our houses and checking them to make sure they are all clean and liveable. Basically, dragging this thing out as long as they can. I want my minions back :( I miss them, and they miss me and my fiancee. And the insane thing is, the way they have gone about this whole thing has been wrong. There are no pictures, they are accusing me of this, yet they didnt even know who I was when they came to the house...its just really ridiculous. Times like this I wish my dad was here to tell me what to do. </3