I recently got married to my fiancee of 2 years....about 2 weeks ago or so now...and it was a very lovely wedding, my mother was there which made me very happy, but the whole time I wished my dad was there to see me and give me away. I like to feel like he was. I love you papa. <3

It's been quite awhile since I posted anything or even came to this site. I guess it reminded me too much of my father and the grief and sadness here was too much to bear. I've been keeping busy with home stuff, even tho I still think about my dad every day. I have quite a few pictures of him up in my bedroom, along with things he bought me for my birthday, etc. Every once in awhile strange things will happen in my bedroom...the light will flicker continusly or the tv will go off, my whole…

I read everyones posts on here, and alot of people are just wraught with pain and sadness months, years after their loved one passes. I find for me, that my sadness comes and goes in spurts. It makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me. I think about my father often...but only when I see pictures or think of his upcoming death anniversary is when I cry...as I write this I have tears streaming down my face because I just happened to look at his picture on my facebook. I guess in a…

I havent been coming here very often as of late.

I've been immersing myself in my online game that I've played for years more and more ..especially now since an expansion just came out. It's easier not to think about anything in real life when theres many things to focus on there.

It makes me feel numb. I like numb.

I still think of my father every day it seems, he passes thru my thoughts, but I havent cried in a week or so. 

Today I…