So I am not really quite sure how this website works yet and I also don't know if it is something I think will help me but I figured it wouldn't hurt to try.  My mom died suddenly February 22, 2012.  I know this has been a little over a year ago and some days it feels like much longer than that,  but others it feels like just yesterday.  I don't really think I have had time to cope or really process the situation, everything happened so fast.  First it was the funeral, then easter, then graduation, then prom, then away for university.  It just feels like I have done so much since then but nothing has really mattered quite as much as it should. When the one year mark hit I wanted to do something to honour my mom.  She was an amazing women and doing something special would be the very least I could do but I could not think of anything that could honour her whole life in one day.  I want to make her proud but it is so hard without her here, I just don't know what to do anymore.  I am not sure what I am looking for with this post.  Maybe just someone to talk to who understands but doesn't know me, I don't really know but I really hope you all have more insight to this than I do