I Can Not by Ronna Doescher on Friday, January 6, 2012 at 9:44am · I can not sleep, for dreams of you are waiting for me Though I love to see, It hurt's too much when I awake The thought of not seeing you in person is too much for me to bear I can not be awake, for thoughts of you are in my mind they take over and I cry all over from missing you The thought that you will not be with me is more than I can bear People ask me how I can think of joining you, but they don't understand I can not…

9 months, 10 months after his passing I had a conversation with him about his passing. I dream with him very often but most dreams he does not say anything to me. Last night was different. He called me on my cell phone to tell me that he was okay. His voice sounded so comforting and in peace. I was the one who was very much frustrated, crying to him. He said that sooner or later we all have to die. I said to him, no, you were just taken way too soon. He just sounded like in peace and trying…

she was in my field on a beautifull decorated elephant,holding a big parasol.it was her wedding day,and she was happy.she never got to expierience what it is to be loved and cherished,and she so longed to know the comfort of being part of a family.how cruell the human creature is.she once asked me what it was like to have a friend,for she had never had one.though she was so kind and so sweet,so trusting and so hopefull,no one ever cared to show her any compassion.she was met with jealousy…

I hope I don't seem like a crazy person,replying to so manny comments,but it truly breaks my heart to see that poeople are reaching out,and that some of peoples comments have not had a single reply.My heart really goes out to you all.I'm so sorry that this world is so cruell.

There are times I feel kind of silly, like right now. I mourn her physical presence, I miss her smile and her favorite lavender scent but I just realized that I feel her still. It's like my sister is right here with me, the way she's always been. It's like she's asking me, "Who are you mourning? I never left you. I told mummy and daddy that you had to have been adopted, why else am I explaining this to you." If she were here physically, she'd crack up at…

I have come to hate retail valentine's day assaults. I thought it was because I'd miss not having Michael's special gift this year, and in a way I was right. It is the gift of him that I miss, not the things. I keep finding little things like text messages, notes and little belongings of his and sometimes this sadness just washes over me. There are a lot of changes with me; I am having to move and downsize my living space by 3/4 so a lot has to go. It's hard right now. Just wanted to say I…

Because we are military family and my daughter was away at college we had three services for her in different states.  Alaska -where she was attended college and lived for 7 years; Pennsylvania –my husband’s home town, where Missy was born and lived for 5 years:  and finally California – my home town and were we currently reside. My beautiful daughter touched many lives and was well loved. There was an unexpectedly large turnout at each of the services including family, friends, and…

I find myself writing down quotes that I hear from different people, or read in a book or magazine... and I finally started writing them down on index cards that I keep taped to the back of my front door... now every time I leave the house, I'm reminded that I'm not alone in this process, and that there are other ways of viewing the challenges I face...

Here are a few I found:

"I've made mistakes in my life, I've let people take advantage of me, and I've accepted way…

Tuesday would have been my husband's birthday. Tomorrow is my birthday. But these dates don't matter anymore because he is gone and I am alone. How do I go on without my soulmate to celebrate these days with? We were together for 30 years. How does a person get beyond this aching heart? I just want him, with all of his faults, back with me. He left me on Christmas Eve 2011, how dare he? Now I have to face all of the trials of life alone. I don't know if I can do it!

I feel like a cell phone who has no charger......... My battery is getting weaker and weaker.... Its started flashing a little red light....... Seems like every thirty seconds or so I hear this faint beap .....As  if its trying to say please help me im dying....... But my charger is gone!!!!!!!

Hi, My mom passed away December 12, 2011. I am an only child and my father is in a nursing home. I was extremely close to my mother. I joined this board to see if I am the only one experiencing some feelings. Sometimes i feel so lost and alone.

Just want to thank you for accepting me here. I have no idea if this place can help or not. But I must try.

Ok, so I have been in here since the beginning of August last year. My grandma past away suddenly and I joined the community, because I was looking for closure. Still haven't found that. We were close!!!! I guess, if I did not say anything it would have been like she never went away, that I wouldn't have to deal with it. I did not want to deal with it. I didn't want to accept that she is gone and I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye!!!! Sometimes I don't want to accept that she is…

dear jess,

        You been gone for what seems like forever, it'll be a year the 12th of March. It's crazy sometimes to think about some of the times we've had together. Getting stranded with friends, hanging out in the rain by the river. I want so bad to be able to get back to me but all I see is the emptiness I feel without you. You made me wanna be a good…

I have 7 grandchildren.  The oldest is 21 and the youngest 2 are both 11.  Four boys, Three girls.  Losing their uncle in 2010 was the first real experience they had with death.  It was hard, yet kids have their own way of looking at things and they knew he had suffered enough.  That he was ready to let go of his crippled, pain racked earthly body.  But then their big strong Papa got sick.  The papa that took them to the Provincial Fair every year.  The papa that taught them how to read the…

My name is Vivian. I lost my 16 year  son on October 23, 2011. I am hurting so much and noone seems to care what I am going through. When I bring up my son they want to change the subject which upsets me because I am basically going through  my grief alone. My husband isn't here for me he just pushes me away. I miss my son so much, his death was unexpected. He was sick off and on for two weeks before he passed away. He was going back and forth to the doctor. First they said he had…

My name is Vivian. I lost my 16 year  son on October 23, 2011. I am hurting so much and noone seems to care what I am going through. When I bring up my son they want to change the subject which upsets me because I am basically going through  my grief alone. My husband isn't here for me he just pushes me away. I miss my son so much, his death was unexpected. He was sick off and on for two weeks before he passed away. He was going back and forth to the doctor. First they said he had…