I suppose none of us are the same people anymore. It still surprises me how much a part of me she was and still is. She's shaped me in so many ways and being my best friend as well, she played more roles in my life than she knew. My parents travel a lot because of my dad's work.

Being older she was mum, being determined and independent she was dad. I now look at the people in my life differently, even at myself. I wonder if I fill such an important place in somebody's heart that when it's my time I'll be missed that much too. I don't know how she did it but she managed to be something important to everyone who knew her. Not just a passing acquaintance my sister Mandy, no she had to have your full attention because she wanted to really know you. I'm sorry...I'm going on and on and on. It's just that it feels good to remember her that way. 

I'm just one of the many who've joined this support group not only because we need the comfort and guidance it offers but also because we thought this person we've lost is so special...so missed...it had to be shared.