yeah,i think when people kill themselves they are so overcome with their own pain/despair that they are not able to think much of the devistation it will do to the people that do really care.it is definately something that the people left behind will never get over.and wondering what they could have done to help the victim.i think it is normal for alot of people,especially sensitive people to contemplate suicide.please reach out if u ever get close to doing it.i wont judge u nomatter what u say.we need u here on earth,and i kno there are still good things ahead for you.even if its just a nice day in the sun,a cup of tea,or a walk in the park.hope u r feeling ok.take care.~hugs~