Grandma

Ok, so I have been in here since the beginning of August last year. My grandma past away suddenly and I joined the community, because I was looking for closure. Still haven't found that. We were close!!!! I guess, if I did not say anything it would have been like she never went away, that I wouldn't have to deal with it. I did not want to deal with it. I didn't want to accept that she is gone and I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye!!!! Sometimes I don't want to accept that she is gone, but I'm going to have to do that! The one person that I could talk to about everything is gone! I'm mad at the doctor! That could have given us a warning and chose not to and sometimes, I'm a little bit mad at God, but I know that I don't have to be mad at Him!

To top it all of, about a month after she past away, I almost lost my bf in a terrible car accident. I guess it all was just TO MUCH for me!! I almost lost another person in my life that I care about!! I find that there are days where I'm afraid of losing the people I love the most. I hold everything in because I knew that I could speak to my gran about anything and she would know just what to say!!

How can I get past the fact and accept that she isn't in my life anymore???? I'm tired of feeling this way!!

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Comment by Brenda Ann on February 6, 2012 at 8:11am

Dear Cassi,

   My dear friend I am so sorry to hear of your loss.  You have found a good way to help yourself by talking here.  Please don't think that you have "no one" to listen or who cares,  cause we all understand.  But I have to say, it warms my heart to read your expressions of faith in God.  I think that you will be a great comfort to the community here at onlinegriefsupport.com.

   If for any reason you do not want your words or thoughts to be public, please go to www.grief-and-comfort.com.  This website is email based and nothing is published publicly.  I started it because talking is so important in the grief process and some people just don't need or want the whole world to analyze their grief. . .

   When my family lost my father in law July 2010 we were shown sooo much loving care, my family and I decided to "Pay it Forward" and try to comfort others at a time in their lives that they need loving care.  So many people have even lost their faith in God because they don't understand that death is Satan's fault and not God's.  Some are almost afraid to believe the promises of God in the Bible or they aren't sure what they believe anymore.  Comfort from the scriptures is what heals and God carries us through.

   May the God of all comfort wrap his loving arms around you. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17) "may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father,...comfort YOUR hearts…”

(Isaiah 41:10) “Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not gaze about, for I am your God. I will fortify you. I will really help you. I will really keep fast hold of you with my right hand of righteousness.”

Brenda

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Comment by Cassi on February 6, 2012 at 12:49am

Dear Sandy!! Thank you so much for your post!! Means a lot to me! I to will be trusting God to get me through, after all, I cannot do it on my own without Him by my side... I'm very thankful that I did not lost my bf and I know with my entire heart and soul that it was God that protected him there, doctors said he is not even suppose to walk or even be alive, but He is both! So God is with me, with him and with all of us. We will get through this. Thank you so much!

Comment by Sandy Christian on January 31, 2012 at 6:15pm

I know how hard it is to lose someone so close to you. Today would have been my husband's birthday. We were married for 22 years and now he is gone and I am alone. I have no one left to talk to either, but I trust in God to get me through. You almost lost your bf, but you didn't! Be ever so thankful for that. When you need to talk to someone, post it on here. Someone will help you through it! Don't concentrate on what almost happened, be thankful it didn't happen. Your Gran is with you, helping you along the way. You just don't see it right now. Be strong for her because she was strong for you.

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