It's been a month since my partner passed away. I found that talking to people helped me. Today, my Airbnb host gave me an insight that I haven't thought about before we had this conversation. He said that everyone eventually passes away. That is the natural course of life. It is the untimely death of the person that makes it harder to accept this reality. My partner was 40 years old when he passed away. I had many plans before he had cancer. In my mind, we will grow old together. In my…
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Added by cin po on March 15, 2017 at 1:00pm —
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It's been a month but I still vividly remember the day you were gone
I try so hard to accept this painful reality
In a room of emptiness I wishpered slowly: "I could have done more, I should have done more..."
I'm drowning in this ocean full of regrets and guilts
My heart is broken now that you; part of me, is gone forever
Wonder will I ever be whole again
People say time will heal but the pain of losing you is unbearable
They say I've got to…
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Added by Valentina Jolley on March 14, 2017 at 6:14pm —
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Psalm 121New Living Translation (NLT)
Psalm 121
A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem.
1 I look up to the mountains—…
Added by Jennifer on March 12, 2017 at 5:02pm —
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Have you experienced the death of a spouse in the past five years?
Are you between the ages of 18-64? If so, researchers from the University of Illinois are interested in hearing your story. We are conducting interviews with individuals who have recently lost a spouse. Interested participants will engage in an audio-recorded interview about their experiences with loss. Interviews will take approximately 45–90 minutes and will remain confidential. Participants who are U.S. citizens,…
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Added by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on March 12, 2017 at 4:30pm —
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Their are so many stages of grief, I have lost times the amount of times I have gone through them all, this time is different, I'm getting severe panic attacks. Throughout the loss of my father I was also going to a 4 yr relationship with an extremely abusive partner, it took every last bit of strength to leave. I had a full time job as a head chef and I was financially independent. In dec 2016 I lost my job, I was irresponsible and it cost me my job, I have been having a massive blow out,…
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Added by Dee on March 11, 2017 at 5:22pm —
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My Mommy died on Saturday, February 25, 2017 at 2:30 P.M. It was the most devastating day of my entire life. I knew her death was certain because she'd had two strokes on both sides of her brain a year apart. It was expected, but never real until the moment it happened. I was asleep when she died. I woke up the minute to the hour she passed on. The movie While You Were Sleeping was my favorite movie of all time, so it is ironic really.
Around midnight I went out on the porch.…
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Added by Jennifer on March 11, 2017 at 3:54pm —
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ever sisne iv had so mush loss i feal lk my lifs bean 1 big crash u cdy u cud say so mush loss in 2012 wz bad thn 2013 14 15 16 17 it tims i feal lk im jinx i do i no its in my hed iv loss nuber of funrels iv bean 2 ovr lst 5 yrs evry 1 difrnt
sad thng is only tim i sea famly
Added by dream moon JO B on March 10, 2017 at 3:36pm —
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My mother lived out her illness for 14 years, with the love of my father and family. For 14 years, we watched my mother, a very strong woman deteriorate. She watched herself deteriorate. I bathed her, clothed her, did her hair and nails. Her bedroom was downstairs, over looking a beautiful vegetable garden and dwarf apple trees.. My father gave her the best life she could have lived.. Up until she passed away. 14 years of live and dedication, honesty, loyalty. My father was diagnosed with MDS…
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Added by Dee on March 2, 2017 at 7:51am —
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I would consider myself a spiritual person.. Born a catholic, but sceptical bout the whole thing. Never been to a psychic or medium, never felt I had or wanted to either. My mother was a teacher, a social worker, a friend, an aunt, a super hero in my eyes. She was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis around my 16th birthday. Actually, no she was diagnosed with depression by a shabby doctor, for 3 years of this 'depression' her meds were upped and upped.. Only for the second opinion 3 years later…
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Added by Dee on February 27, 2017 at 5:42am —
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shawn I miss you so bad, I cry all the time, my depression is worse, god how I pray every night to die, to hold you again. I love you always and forever mom
Added by kim on February 25, 2017 at 9:39am —
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One of my friends (who hasn't contacted me for weeks) sent me a cutesy picture of a cat and a message which asked "how are you?". Cat picture aside, I am tired of this question, particularly when I feel the person asking it just wants to hear I am feeling better. As if that is possible for me five months after my husband's suicide. After I lost the love of my life, my joy and my happiness.I don't know how to answer the how are you question anymore, but I will be damned if I'm going to put on a…
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Added by Louise on February 25, 2017 at 12:30am —
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Added by Elizabeth skelsey on February 24, 2017 at 4:00am —
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Today I've been going through all my photos on my phone and moving them to my PC. Hundreds of photos of me and my wonderful husband, from our honeymoon and our wedding. I have not stopped crying, I can't cope with this pain, I feel like I'm reaching the end of my rope. I miss him so much, I don't want to live for the rest of my life without him. I love him so much. Oh god, what do I do? I'm so lost without him, I can't believe hes dead. Jesus help me.
Added by Louise on February 21, 2017 at 10:12pm —
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The Day I'll Finally Stop Grieving
“How long has it…
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Added by Blue Swan on February 15, 2017 at 1:00pm —
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Added by dream moon JO B on February 9, 2017 at 4:27pm —
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I have lately been thinking about why I am here now. After 55 years of being married to a wonderful, caring, loving man, I am now alone. I drift through the days wondering why I am here and why I have to stay here to endure loneliness, sadness, and depression. What is the purpose of this? Why can't I just go? I seem to be taking up space and each day is like the day before. I have friends and family, but, sorry to say, they just do not fill the void of having my husband with me. He was the one…
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Added by Maxey on February 7, 2017 at 9:41pm —
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So today I literally can not breathe, I feel totally consumed with longing and needing him so much, god I wished he knew how much I need him, he's the only person that can make this go away, I want him back so much I've just had a terrible week. I'm 43, how am I gonna do this for years and years when I'm struggling to hold on. Since I woke up this morning all I can think about is the first time we kissed, it was 20 years ago but I remember it like it was yesterday, it just popped in my mind…
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Added by joanne on February 4, 2017 at 4:07pm —
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im strest i am plsd dnt hav a go or juge me wored abot mom coz of th big goin arnd evry 1 iv gt it shes got bt shes got it shes so frale im wored coz of it iv had so mush loss so mush bad piss or shit goin on plsd dnt be mad it me
evry 1 i luv bad thnfs hapen 2htm sisne lozin my dad iv seam 2 loss pepelor thy get sic evry days thy do its lk im a jinx i am i am a jinx i no i am
dad dieds getin betr frm a strioke he wz i thrt grt im getin my dad vac agan i am wong he wz…
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Added by dream moon JO B on February 2, 2017 at 5:53pm —
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Praying time goes faster so my life will end...I have endured my 3rd Christmas...so meaningless...another New Year with my heart still in pieces. I have started my Eat, Pray,Love journey; going to places and visiting people special to our 35 yrs together...therapists thought would help but only made my heart break more...wish I had stayed in my shell. My journey took me to the church where we married, visiting my second Moma, visiting my best high school friend who was in our wedding. I…
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Added by Libbie H on January 29, 2017 at 11:20am —
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It's been 18 months now, even though it still feels like yesterday.Is it always going to feel like yesterday? everyday feels like the day before, nothing changes, I feel like I'm in the movie groundhog day, in fact I wish that this was a movie and I would wake up and it would be different and I would open my eyes and Andy would be here and we would get our happy ending, but we all know on here that happy endings are not real. I'm so so bloody tired, I go to work, do the usual mummy stuff,…
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Added by joanne on January 27, 2017 at 5:59pm —
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