You were my best fellow, my first love. How am I going to navigate this world without your guidance and without being able to feel your arms around me or hear your laughter? It is a blue Christmas indeed without you.

The day you died there was a beautiful rainbow that stretched across the sky. I…

When Lily died I missed her with all my heart and soul; but I wasn't lonely. I still had my husband. Our conversations filled in some of the gaps in my life that being without Lily left behind.

Recently, however, I have been without my husband. I still have Summer and Riley to play with…

I am having a challenging time with a specific person in my life right now. Amidst all my preparation for Christmas I need to deal with this person who it feels wants to drag me down as low as he is feeling! I have been trying to focus on all the amazing support and love I have been receiving from my special friends here on this page (thank you again). I have been trying to not take it personally, to just feel sorry for him and the pain he is feeling but today it got the better of me and…

To everyone whom has replied to my posts that I have not replied to yet, I am sorry for that. It has been on my mind every day. I am away at the moment and I do intend on replying and wanted each of you to know that. I will reply when I can find the energy and time to put into my replies.

Thanks for your patience and understanding. 

God bless you all

Lee. 

i thnk xmas 2013 will be hrder thn lst yr it will be coz aftr my dad died lst yr i dnt thng i cud luze mre famly ths yr or frindss of famly or nboz ths yr 

it dnt hlp plyng xmas songs in oct it dnt advtizng stuf in aug/sep selng xmas crd in julllly it dnt i no i sond lk a msiry sonso i usd 2 luv xmas 1 tm i did bt nw it mks me feal sad…

I lost my husband in a car wreck a couple of months ago and I am still reeling.  We married very young and were married for 23 years.  Through our marriage, we had been told we would never be able to have children, nursed each other through many illnesses and tried to be as supportive of each other as possible.  The minute I laid eyes on him, I knew he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  He was my best friend.  I always imagined us as elderly people, holding hands and…

So I had to ask the seargent on my brothers case if the killer had remorse during their interviews..he didnt really want to tell me but did say he did not lose any sleep over the 3 murders he didnt even think he would get caught..Now that Ive seen his face i am struggling with not hating him..he looks like the devil...God forgive me..

About a week ago I had a dream. I was at a large family gathering. My aunts and remaining uncle were present and I was being introduced to a small boy, maybe 4 or 5 years old who was linked to my late uncle Jim (whose baby son had been adopted out at birth over thirty years before and none of our family had ever met). My uncle, like Lily died of cancer. This uncle whom I so adored as the gentle, funny and charismatic…

almost 3 years later it hurts that my dad won't be around to see me make it big as an actor and give a cool speech during a toast if I ever book my first movie and have an after-party. There is nobody else that I would want sitting in the audience of my open mics and there will never be another person that cared about my acting dream as much as he did, my father was not only proud of my acting but he showed up to all 8 shows, even snuck into reversals and the director, producer, and all of…

Oh, I had written a reply on Change of Seasons and lost the whole thing.  Just needing to empty out my storage tank of sad thoughts.  Writing it out, talking to my son sometimes helps.

Coming up on another winter/holiday season and thoughts (memories) are running wild again.  Two nights ago (out of the blue) I pictured the snow that was on our deck the first winter you were not here.  Maybe it had been the first snowfall that year - I can't remember that.  All I know is that…

The death of your loved one might inspire you to evaluate your own feelings of mortality. Throughout each stage, a common thread of hope emerges: As long as there is life, there is hope. As long as there is hope, there is life.

Many people do not experience the stages in the order listed below, which is okay. The key to understanding the stages is not to feel like you must go through every one of them, in precise order. Instead, it’s more helpful to look at…

i dnt no wish yr wz worse ths yr or lst yr 2 me lst yr coz i lost my dad wish hrts me 2 mush thn ths yr i dnt thng i cud lose mre peple lk lst yr  its dec 2013 i drnt thng abot 2014 

i dnt thng grief cud hrt as bad ths till nw i no wen i wz a tran i lost peple but now im a mush oldr it seams 2 hrt very bad it…

http://www.healthcentral.com/anxiety/cf/slideshows/8-tips-for-managing-stress-during-transitional-phases?ic=8833

It has not even been a week since her passing and today being a holiday to spend with family and loved ones giving thanks for ones blessings... As I sit in my home alone reflecting on my life and my many losses I can cry a river of tears and easily feel the need to retreat to a dark place . I am not gonna let myself do that ... My mother , all my grandparents, brother, aunts, uncle ,cousins, friends and beloved pets who have passed on would not want that for me. 

Sure I let myself…

Many say to take grieving a day at a time...but it is really a breath at at time...as we carry grief with us in every breath we draw in.

I have found since the loss of my beautiful mother that I have to think about doing things...instead of just doing them...and this is because I don't really…

Finally my episode is over! Whew! Every time I go through these episodes I gotta wonder if I'll live through it. This was a bad one no doubt about it. The nightmares were horrible. The anger was fierce, and the sadness overwhelming. I'm not sure if I learned anything from this one because it's too soon, but I'm so glad to be somewhat back to normal. I haven't thrown a temper tantrum like that for a long time. Anything within my reach I threw. My bedroom was a mess, and my house was also a…

My husband recently passed away and my spiritual beliefs are helping me to stay in a place of peace. Yes, his body failed. We have such fragile human bodies. But I know it is up to me to keep his spirit alive.