It's been almost 2 years(aug 12) since the passing of my grandma ..I past week i have cried tears alone. I dont know why all of a sudden. How can I get through this pain of losing the most important person in my life? She was my rock the one that always protected me. and now she is gone , left me alone to fight the battles of life without her here. I cant stop crying ....WANT the PAIN to end. i want her back here to get me through this.I wanna give up :(…
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Added by Carmen on June 11, 2010 at 11:24am —
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Hello All
I just came back from Castle Rock Colorado, I live in Denver. My Mom is critically ill with liver failure.
My brother and wife are taking care of her. No one should ever see someone they love in that condition.
I pulled up and my niece was outside of the house and she did not wave or smile, she approached my
car and said "we don't want any chaos", I simply said I guess you dont know me very well.
I went inside and my Mom's house…
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Added by Caroline Billick on June 6, 2010 at 10:00pm —
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Today is a bad day, today would have been my 26th wedding anniversary. I think back on the beautiful day when I became Vern's wife. We danced and danced that evening. I never thought that he would be taken out of my life after 25 years. It has been 5 months since Vern died in surgery it still does not seem real. my memories of our life together seem to be fading . there is such a hole in my life. My son moved out of my home yesterday he had wanted to get an apartment for a long time but he…
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Added by kari vorbeck on June 2, 2010 at 8:17pm —
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So these past couple weeks have been a nightmare for me. I haven't been sleeping right at all. And I've been crying pretty much every night. And low and behold, the other day at church, I lost it! Completely lost it. Someone made reference to the funeral after church and I couldn't stop crying the rest of the day. I broke down in front of someone at church. Which is something I just don't do. That was basically the first time I've really cried in front of anyone since my…
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Added by Erika M on May 31, 2010 at 7:56pm —
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On Memorial Day, we take time to remember all of the soldiers that died so that we can have our freedom.
These quotes sum up the real importance of Memorial Day.
Thank God that such men AND WOMEN LIVED.
"And they who for their country die shall fill an honored grave, for glory lights the soldier's tomb, and beauty weeps the brave." - Joseph Drake
"A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself." - Joseph…
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Added by coachlouise on May 28, 2010 at 5:31pm —
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"A Pair of Shoes"
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another
step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and
not theirs.
They… Continue
Added by Shelly on May 25, 2010 at 9:11pm —
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Night time is the hardest part of the day for me, that's when we would talk and share about how our day had gone. Then plan for the following day, I miss doing that. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I'm missing him right this minute!
I love you Rob!
Added by rodan99 on May 25, 2010 at 1:05am —
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Yesterday I went to our local LiveStrong Event here in town. I am so glad I did. I couldn't run but I did put a whole bunch of names on the chain of hope. Some survived cancer and some didn't. Mommy didn't! I came to support the runners and walkers and riders in her memory.There are so many times yesterday when they were talking that I was thinking that if they ever cure Ovarian Cancer it would not be able to help Mommy but it would help other women. I am trying still to…
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Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 24, 2010 at 10:52am —
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I have been thinking alot about you today mom and I don't know why. I guess because I was talking to friend of mine on Facebook about what you and dad did for Michael. There were so many times I counted on you and you came through and I could never have repayed you for those times. Now I can't and it bothers me alot. Did you ever know how much you meant to me? Did I say I love you enough? Did I tell you I appreciated you enough? I love you mom so much! Paige
Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 18, 2010 at 10:24am —
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I totally believe that you grieve over the loss of yourself when you are raped. I am a survivor of rape and I can honestly say that I greived over the parts of me that were taken away from the rape and I am not sure even now as healed as I have been that they will come back,. I mourn for the trusting way I used to be because I am not that way anymore. And I mourn for the happiness I lost in my life. It has not been an easy road but I am making it slowly back maybe not to the person I was but a…
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Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 15, 2010 at 9:01am —
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My worst fear in the world at one time was being an orphan. That came true when my dad died three years ago. When it finally happened it wasn't the big fear I thought it was going to be. The overwhelming feeling I had wasn't fear but a complete and utter saddness knowing that neither one of my parens would ever be there at the happy moments in my life. My dad won't be able to walk me down the asile if I get married again. They won't see my son marry and have children of his own. I know they are…
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Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 13, 2010 at 9:16am —
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What I wouldn't give to have one more day with you! One more hug! One more kiss! One more conversation. It is never to be because cancer took you from us far to young. I see you everywhere Mom. In the sky on a clear day and in my bedroom at night. Because of you I no longer fear death. I can't wait to see you and dad in heaven. I miss you every day! Thank you for being my mom and my best friend! I love you and miss you so very much.
Added by Paige Anne Lovelace on May 12, 2010 at 4:07pm —
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Hi everyone, Im new to this so bare with me.
My mom passed away on March 27th of this year. She was 57 yrs old. She has been ill for over 5 years now and no one could diagnose her disease. She had back surgery for a herniated disc and about a year after that she started to go down hill.
The first symptoms were her speech. She started slurring her words. Automatically we thought it was because of her pain medication she was taking for her back. However, after…
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Added by Stacy on April 28, 2010 at 6:54pm —
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Grief is a process that you must decide to go through. I never thought @ age 37 I would be grieving my husband. I'm just looking for people to listen and give advice. I'm currently in Grief Share, but when that ends I know of no support groups locally to attend. I hope someone can share some advice concerning suicide of a love one. This is one of the hardest things that I've ever had to deal with. A suicide leaves so many unanswered questions and… Continue
Added by Dana Allen on April 26, 2010 at 5:30pm —
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I walk in this cold room where My daughter is layin on this steel table, From far away it looks as if she is sleeping. I get closer to her and she looks so peaceful so still so beautiful but yet so lifeless! My kids including myself sleep with our eyes open..on this occassion hers are tighly shut..I stand beside her picking the grass out of her HAIR, and telling her how much I love her! She had braids in her hair I took them down and combed her hair ever so gently! Put a Tiara in her hair,…
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Added by Shelly on April 15, 2010 at 9:00am —
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My dearest sweet Jessy who understands from above
It's been two years, and still so strong is our love
I've been through positive times, determined to grow
But it's slower than I thought, much much more slow
When first we were parted, people told me, "you need to…
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Added by Stephanie on April 9, 2010 at 6:30pm —
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I suffer from depression and anxiety and have been coping with this for the past year or so. I have gone through the sudden death of a friend and two traumatic breakups. I had started to feel better, lighter, and as if life was finally going right. I had met a guy that had complimented me in every way. We were inseperable and not five minutes would go by without us calling, texting, or emailing one another. I felt so safe with him and finally let my guard down. Yesterday, he broke up with…
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Added by Kelsey Ross on April 6, 2010 at 5:34pm —
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It is the morning after we were at the hospital all night because they had to sedate him because breathing was too hard with the breathing tube in for him. It is around 9 in the morning and I wake up and to my surprise everyone else is asleep from the long night…
The phone rings and it is his oncologist and I answer it and he mistakes me for my mom. He says that they did blood tests and there is a serious infection with his kidneys from his low white blood cell…
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Added by Alexis Walls on April 2, 2010 at 2:47pm —
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I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling like I was going to suffocate. The 40th anniversary of my mothers death is this Sunday April 4. She had cancer. I was 11 years old. I did not know that my mother was going to die. When she did, I started to cry, my aunt said "stop crying you are just feeling sorry for yourself" I learned to hold all of my feeling inside, I have turned my anger inward and am now depressed. As a 51 year old mother of 2, I need to know how to grieve and how to pass…
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Added by Donna Olson on March 29, 2010 at 8:15am —
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I CAN HEAR YOU WHISPER
In the mornings
I reserve my drive time
To say hello to you
And to feel you surround me
With your violet eddy of emotions.
In the beginning, a hundred years ago (or was it yesterday?),
My trips to town were for crying,
For screaming,
For asking you over and over and over again
WHY YOU HAD TO LEAVE,
But now it's different.
Now we share the sunrise.
We listen to music,
We reach for…
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Added by Gail Richardson on March 21, 2010 at 4:52pm —
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