Yesterday I went to our local LiveStrong Event here in town. I am so glad I did. I couldn't run but I did put a whole bunch of names on the chain of hope. Some survived cancer and some didn't. Mommy didn't! I came to support the runners and walkers and riders in her memory.There are so many times yesterday when they were talking that I was thinking that if they ever cure Ovarian Cancer it would not be able to help Mommy but it would help other women. I am trying still to finally not feel so broken over her death. She has been gone for ten years and it still is the same pain. I know that I haven't grieved her death the right way. I feel if I open the grief door I will never close it. I keep my sadness to myself. I don't even tell my sister how I feel. I wonder if I every will.