I can't believe that you have been gone for ten years. It seems like yesterday we were fighting for your life. It was a battle you couldn't win though.I HATE OVARIAN CANCER! I was so angry at God for taking you away from us because you so wanted to live and be healed and he couldn't do that for us and it hurt me. I walked away from God mommy because I was so hurt but I came back to him because I couldn't hurt your memory like that. I feel so aimless since you have been gone because you were my… Continue

Yesterday I went to our local LiveStrong Event here in town. I am so glad I did. I couldn't run but I did put a whole bunch of names on the chain of hope. Some survived cancer and some didn't. Mommy didn't! I came to support the runners and walkers and riders in her memory.There are so many times yesterday when they were talking that I was thinking that if they ever cure Ovarian Cancer it would not be able to help Mommy but it would help other women. I am trying still to…

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I have been thinking alot about you today mom and I don't know why. I guess because I was talking to friend of mine on Facebook about what you and dad did for Michael. There were so many times I counted on you and you came through and I could never have repayed you for those times. Now I can't and it bothers me alot. Did you ever know how much you meant to me? Did I say I love you enough? Did I tell you I appreciated you enough? I love you mom so much! Paige

I totally believe that you grieve over the loss of yourself when you are raped. I am a survivor of rape and I can honestly say that I greived over the parts of me that were taken away from the rape and I am not sure even now as healed as I have been that they will come back,. I mourn for the trusting way I used to be because I am not that way anymore. And I mourn for the happiness I lost in my life. It has not been an easy road but I am making it slowly back maybe not to the person I was but a… Continue

My worst fear in the world at one time was being an orphan. That came true when my dad died three years ago. When it finally happened it wasn't the big fear I thought it was going to be. The overwhelming feeling I had wasn't fear but a complete and utter saddness knowing that neither one of my parens would ever be there at the happy moments in my life. My dad won't be able to walk me down the asile if I get married again. They won't see my son marry and have children of his own. I know they are… Continue

What I wouldn't give to have one more day with you! One more hug! One more kiss! One more conversation. It is never to be because cancer took you from us far to young. I see you everywhere Mom. In the sky on a clear day and in my bedroom at night. Because of you I no longer fear death. I can't wait to see you and dad in heaven. I miss you every day! Thank you for being my mom and my best friend! I love you and miss you so very much.