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Comment by Marie on April 8, 2010 at 2:49pm

Yes, you can pray to whatever you believe in, at any time. That's the beauty of prayer it gives you hope for a brighter tomorrow. Even though you were not bought up with religion you can attend a number of churches that have wonderful youth groups that help others in need. I find helping others with problems bigger than mine gets my mind off my problems.
Going through difficult times in our lives is what developes us and helps us grow. I know that won't take away the pain but believe you will get through this with the love and support of all of us, friends and family.
I once wrote my heart breaker a long letter pouring out all my feelings then put it under my bed where it stayed until I felt stronger then tore it to shreads. That made me feel much better..a way to express the things I really wanted to say.
Be patient and take care of yourself. Good luck!

Comment by Kelsey Ross on April 8, 2010 at 9:02am

You are all so wonderful. Thanks for your support and your encouragement...today is a bit better, but the feeling in my stomach and my lungs and my heart just won't subside. How do you come to terms with unfinished business or words left unsaid? I feel so helpless and lonely even though I KNOW this has happened to so many. I think the worst is knowing the even though things probably won't get worse, they won't get better for a long time to come. Even if next month I am not crying every day, the longing and the memories are still there. I wish there was some magic drug for sadness. I'm trying to pray but I feel like since I haven't been brought up to be very religious that it seems almost fake. Can you just start to pray at any point in your life? Thank you all again so much.

Comment by Stephanie on April 8, 2010 at 6:34am

HOLD ON HOLD ON HOLD ON! to ANYTHING! all your therapy and medication has not been of no use. you are just in shock and pain.
right now, hold on to anything that you can, even if it means talking to me, or others as support. you are "falling". correct, the rug has been pulled out from under you. you are falling.
its happened to me.
its hanppened to MILLIONS.
its horrible, frightening, HURTFUL.
catch yourself. write. talk. BREATHE.
YOU WILL BE OKAY.
it is the NOW that you have to get through.

in time to come, you wont BELIEVE that you were this shattered.
for now, hold on.
lots of love, janice

keep writing

Comment by Marie on April 7, 2010 at 8:01pm

Hi Kelsey, You're about my daughters age (who also has anxiety ) and if you were her I would tell her.. it seems to you now that this is the worst possible thing to happen to you but sometimes our life has a plan and things aren't supposed to be and if they were it will work out. If you believe in God, now is the time to put your trust in him and believe he has another plan for you. Believe in yourself in your strength that you will get over this. There is another person for you if you just be patient and feel the love around you..Your family and friends and a higher power than us all.
I've had my heart broken many times and each time I thought I would die from the pain but you'll get through it..in time. Each day gets better, slowly but a little better.
If your anxiety and depression increases see your doctor, change your meds there is a lot out there find something that works but most importantly DON'T GIVE UP. You're to young to give up hope.
I will add you to my prayers today..feel them and know people care about you. I hope this helped you a little bit and I'm so sorry your heart is broken but it will heal..only if you believe.
I'm here for you, anytime.

Comment by Donna Olson on April 7, 2010 at 7:53pm

I am sorry for your loss. Losing someone that you trust is difficult. Sometimes we all drop our toolbox full of tools. It's ok to feel sad, you have a lot to feel sad about. Picking up and living life can be a struggle. I wish you the best on your journey. I have been shocked by a mans behavior in a similar way. I believe we need to keep on trusting and loving ourselves. Be gentle with yourself.