I am giving up as of today. There is simply too much loss and too much sadness.

I haven't slept well for such a long time, and have been looking for a job for five years now and counting. I cannot seem to make things work, and more and more things are being taken away. There is no help from anywhere and I long to jut go home to my real home in Heaven. At least there I won't have to worry about unpaid bills, hurting, and disappointing others because I can't just snap out of this grief…

well before it was pretty predictable.She would go out to do what she does (nothing bad) I would enjoy those moments. The die had pretty well been cast for a long time for us. I wonder if it would be different if I paid attention to her health.Its hard to say she went on dialysis in 2008 .We got married in1977.So there must have been a time where her kidneys started to fail. Did she ever pay attention to her health or maby I should have. I don,t know.I guess there things you have no control…

I was in walmart and shopping,I was taken with a spell of depression in other words took me over uuncontrolable I fought it back.You think you can handle a loss but its not that easy.So here Iam in a empty house.Its ironic,because she never stayed home that much.So I spent part of the morning planting  a fruit tree she bought, trying to figure out where to plant the other ones.

My stepson doesn,t call but bless his heart he paid for some temple visits to honor his mother.I had a good…

Lets face it grief, as we know it is no fun. However if we change the meaning of grief, maybe we could change the feeling.

G- Stands for being grateful for our life and the time we have with our love ones living and the time we had with our love ones who have…

I suffer from depression and anxiety and have been coping with this for the past year or so. I have gone through the sudden death of a friend and two traumatic breakups. I had started to feel better, lighter, and as if life was finally going right. I had met a guy that had complimented me in every way. We were inseperable and not five minutes would go by without us calling, texting, or emailing one another. I felt so safe with him and finally let my guard down. Yesterday, he broke up with…