Today is a bad day, today would have been my 26th wedding anniversary. I think back on the beautiful day when I became Vern's wife. We danced and danced that evening. I never thought that he would be taken out of my life after 25 years. It has been 5 months since Vern died in surgery it still does not seem real. my memories of our life together seem to be fading . there is such a hole in my life. My son moved out of my home yesterday he had wanted to get an apartment for a long time but he stayed at home to be with his dad. Anxiety has racked my body I can not stop shaking, relaxation is not achievable. How can I survive this? I am not able to cry, I can not share my grief with anyone, I do not know what will happen if I let myself . I must put on a mask of normalcy, but I am being ripped apart inside.

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Comment by Hindy Kempler on June 26, 2010 at 8:45am
Dear Kari,
I understand how tough this is. My husband died 3 years ago and i struggle with it every day. Our society doesn't want to hear about grief. I rarely express myself to my own children.
Comment by Lisa Westgate on June 16, 2010 at 10:18pm
You have made a good start to try to survive this. You can do it. I am truly sorry for your loss. Keep your chin up.

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