This morning I was up at 7am! It's rare that I am up that early, unless I've been up all night. I was watching The Waltons. I usually do in the morning before I leave my bedroom for the day. You see I have had this fantasy about having this family for my own all my life.  If I could have afforded 7 children I would of had them. Now that I know how life can betray a person, i'm not so sure. That's why it's a good thing to not know what the future holds. I always dreamed that if you were a…

I have been befuddled over the passing of the 10 year old boy that was hit by a car last week. My grandchildren were in my care all last week so there wasn't much time for deep thought. Npw that I am alone now I'm having lots of thoughts about it, so I went to the farm for a little distraction, plus the grass out there really needed cutting. I brought my dog Zero with me. Zero's getting old and I want him to have a good summer. Anyway Zero and I took a trip to the farm. I buzzed around…

Last night I heard a bunch of sirens go by, As always I froze for a minute and got a sick feeling in my gut. It was a 10 year old boy. He was riding his bike and was hit by a car. He is brain dead. They are waiting for the rest of the family to arrive and then they will terminate his life support. I can barely think about this without getting sick to my stomach. It gives me flashbacks. I am a little disappointed in myself. I can't think of one thing I could say to this young mother to…