I'm having a rough day. There's so much to do, but I can't seem to wrap my mind around anything. The headaches are becoming more frequent, and the nightmares have returned. This makes me so frustrated. The neurologist said I'm hard to treat because of allergies to most medicine. I don't know what to do. Lil Del keeps popping in, and out of my mind. His life, his death, worry about what's left of my family. All the things I normally have a handle on. Normal! What is that? I pray, but I can't seem to hear Him. I had a wonderful weekend with my daughters, and grandbabies, and I appreciate that. I don't know what's wrong with me. This is one of those days when I want things to be the way they were. I want things to be the way I wanted them to be. I'm tired. I don't want to die, but I'm having trouble living today. Thank God there's tomorrow. My mind is so full of what was, and yesterday. My heart aches today. I know these days will come and go, but that don't mean I have to like them. I'm not angry. I'm just sad. The wind has been blowing hard for 3 days. I want it to stop! Yep it's a good thing tomorrow's another day!