my life has been upside down since my husband was killed.. i try each day to fight against all emotions and try to find ways to cope, but my pain inside my heart does not seem to get better but worsen with time. i try to avoid all reunions or meeting with family because i just want to avoid people asking me how I am and rather stay indoors all the time.  i just think about my husband and cant believe or accept that he is really gone. i am literrally avoiding all subject with regards to my…

I just have not been able to stop the tears since this morning. I just want to give a huge hug and kiss to the love of my life, my sweet husband, Danny, but feel so helpless since I cannot do that anymore!. I can say and scream and maybe he will listen but no warm hug or kiss. As I am driving to work this morning, I cant help to see all of the advertisement in the streets, the radio, the t.v. Can it all just  go away!? It hurts too much to know that today is Love Day and I am without the…

9 months, 10 months after his passing I had a conversation with him about his passing. I dream with him very often but most dreams he does not say anything to me. Last night was different. He called me on my cell phone to tell me that he was okay. His voice sounded so comforting and in peace. I was the one who was very much frustrated, crying to him. He said that sooner or later we all have to die. I said to him, no, you were just taken way too soon. He just sounded like in peace and trying…