At this time of year, i will get Danny a new pair of shoes, sports jacket, new pair of glasses, or a cologne maybe??.

For Dad, it was always the same gift, either a warm sweater or a jacket?....

Now, i am no longer shopping for xmas presents for either of them.. I am now buying flowers for both of them..

My mother and I share the same marriage status, we are both "Widows"..  We are both relying on each other to somehow make it through from the smallest little obstacles(trying to put up a lightbulb to trying to be plumbers) to feeling both lonely without either my Dad or Danny.

Life was not suppose to turn out this way.. Sebastian was to have his Dad here with him and I should too have my Daddy here with me to make me laugh. Or when Danny and I enjoyed listening to his stories when he was a youngster or even just playing domino or a good poker game with him!!. I so much miss those days, when Danny and I would be sitting down eating breakfast, and Dad will just all of the sudden come down to our house and brighten our breakfast with some delicous hot tamales he will buy for us.. Those were the great family moments, i so much i can have back. At least 1 more time... Please...