i just came back from a vacation trip along with my son. he enjoyed his time out there and out of the house for a bit. i missed danny so very much and would have given anything for him to be along with us during our vacation. however, seeing my son's joy and happiness, was just amazing, like if I was seeing danny and feeling him close to me at all the times. although, i had guilty thoughts I dont regret it at the end. i love danny so much and know how much, deeply he loved our son, and know that he  too is happy for our son's well being and happiness. I continue to miss him dearly and struggle with his loss daily but realize that our son needs me so much. So, I should continue fighting to get up every day, fight against my grief,  and be stronger than ever for one reason only= our son, which is what Danny and I created together and the result of the strong love we both shared.