Hi all, I'm a newbie to this group
I lost my dad in january this year, then my great Aunt and then my stepdad all in the space of a few weeks.
I'm still working my way through all sorts of emotions.
Anxiety, stress, lonliness, depression, anger - wow I've never expressed my anger until now, I've started punching my bed and beating up cardboard boxes.
Lots of past issues are rearing their heads - I've realised my relationship with my mother is no where near what I was telling…
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Added by Kate on September 23, 2009 at 10:31pm —
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Today as i drove home i repeated the phrase my sister is dead my sister is dead. I still can't belive that i will never see her again on Earth, that i will never every get to talk to her again on Earth. i don't understand how to not miss her. i need her! i really do not have any one to talk to my husband does not understand and my mom and dad are griving too. my best frined is gone/dead. who can i call and tell all my dumb stuff to? you will listen or what to listen? i am lost and i need to…
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Added by Jason Morgan on September 22, 2009 at 8:41pm —
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i hope i can find some hope to go on with others who have also loved there bueatiful sons and dauthers. i dont kow how to use this computer at all it was given me for this reason so i could talk to othrs like me i hope it works with you all it takes me a long time to type and sometimes i lose the pages i am trying so please help to not lose me if you can i really need to talk about my son about his name nathan about his wonderful sense of humor he could always make me laugh even when i was mad…
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Added by jackie steinbock on September 21, 2009 at 4:50pm —
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Yesterday marked two months, or more precisely, 63 days since my mother passed. Where am I now?
While logic has never played a huge role in my life; I've never really grasped the need for it, it seems so complicated, so unnecessary; I have always enjoyed analyzing and attempting to quantify my emotional state.
Yes, I am a weirdo. Let me state for the record that I am completely comfortable with and in fact not a little proud of that.
So, in the spirit of…
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Added by jenn murphy on September 15, 2009 at 2:30pm —
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i know there is one of these in the i miss my son or daughter forum but i wanted to write a few that have really p****d me off
The worst is the people who say it will be hard but you will get over it eventually
- no, you dont "get over it" you learn to live with it a little. i dont even want to get over it.
Some people have said "at least he didn't have to grow old"
- What? Because that's a bad thing?
the past tense.
- it annoys me how easily…
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Added by Benny Shipton on September 14, 2009 at 11:08am —
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Donna Marsh O’Connor, Mother of Vanessa Lang Langer
As the world moves further and further away from the actual events of 9/11/2001 both in time and spirit, and as 9/11 effaces into yet another simple story cast in history, as the parent of Vanessa Lang Langer lost as the towers fell, I want to let it go. I want to stop talking about…
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Added by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on September 12, 2009 at 9:27pm —
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wear a Gold ribbon on the 12th of September in Honor of all the kids that are fighting cancer and for those that have lost their battle "Leukaemia Sux!" missing Jacob
Added by Jacob Michael scott McLeod-Steinmetz on September 2, 2009 at 11:54pm —
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God looked around his garden
and found an empty place,
he then looked down upon the
earth and saw your tired face.
He put his arms around you and
lifted you to rest,
God's garden must be beautiful,
He always takes the best.
He knew you were suffering,
He knew you were in pain.
He knew that you would never
get well on earth again.
He saw the road was getting rough,
and the hills wer hard to climb,
so he…
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Added by Tiffany Jacobsen on September 2, 2009 at 10:23pm —
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When i am gone,release me,let me go.I have so many things to see & do.You must not tie yourself to me with tears.Be happy that i have had so many years.I gave you my love,you can only guess how much you gave me in happiness.I thank you for the love each have shown,but now it is time i traveled on alone.So grieve a while for me,if grieve you must.Then let your grief comforted by trust it is only for a while that we must part so bless the memories in your heart.I will not be far away,for life…
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Added by sue richardson on September 2, 2009 at 5:30pm —
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The Gift
© Lea Gomez
I will never say goodbye to you my Father
cause I know this is not the end for us to see each other.
You will only be going to a place where there’s no pain nor suffering.
I am happy for you, for you will be with God.
For now we need to go in separate ways.
I remember how your arms hold me and give me strength.
You were always there to listen, love, and defend me in everything.
You were my very best friend.
In my triumphs…
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Added by Tiffany Jacobsen on August 31, 2009 at 8:34pm —
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Am i alone? I certainly feel it. Along with an extreme amount of guilt for not being able to help my dad when he was dying, anger at my sister for hiding downstairs while it was happening. Regret that my older brother and sister hadn't seen him for a month. Confusion that i had a normal conversation with him, said i love you and goodnight, and half an hour later he was gone.
All of these feelings that i have had before in other circumstances, yet personifed by a thousand.
I need help.
Added by Benny Shipton on August 31, 2009 at 4:19pm —
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Dad as I sit here letting the tears fall hoping you really are watching over me in heaven, I realize how sad I am that you are no longer here on earth and that I'll never see or hear you again.
You were my hero are my hero daddy. You always had my back, answered any question I had, helped me learn how to dream, imagine, smile, laugh, talk, walk, etc.
I flew home to be by your side in the hospital because I love you so much. I didn't believe them when they said dad's dying,…
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Added by Nacole Walls on August 31, 2009 at 12:39pm —
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6 months ago my dad died suddenly of a heart attack. Only me and my younger sister were in the house at the time. We were both in our rooms when we heard a crash out on the landing, and went out to see on the floor. I cant properly remember the next hour or so, but i remember sending my sister to ring for help, while i tried to resusitate him. People keep telling me that unless the ambulance there straight away then there is hardly any chance of success. I dont know whether to believe them or…
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Added by Benny Shipton on August 30, 2009 at 10:45pm —
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I used to be able to ask him anything -- he was always there for me no matter what. It feels so strange to have that ripped away from me so suddenly. For the past week I've been dealing with it by avoiding any reminder that he's gone. Now it feels so overwhelming. I want to talk to him more than anything in the world. Where's my best friend? Where's my protector? Where's the person that's always been there? A part of me simply doesn't understand it. He can't be gone -- he just…
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Added by Cat Bailey on August 29, 2009 at 5:00am —
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i didnt write this poem but it really touched me alot
its called dont tell me
Don't tell me that you understand
Don't tell me that you know,
Don't tell me that I will survive
Or how I will surely grow.
Don't tell me that this is just a test
That I am truly blessed
That I am chosen for this task
Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't…
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Added by kimberly rowe on August 22, 2009 at 10:43pm —
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dear , CoDy
This week has been really hard. cant seem to focus on anything with out thinking of you and getting sad. I really dont know how im gonna get through this. Everybody said it will get better in time but it only seems to be getting worse. I miss you cody and right now i need you bad, the baby is sick and school is getting harder to finish with everything going on. Im going crazy life is really hard with out you here i didnt know how bad i did need you but now i do. I love you and…
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Added by kimberly rowe on August 22, 2009 at 10:28pm —
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Saturday always meant pizza night with dad. We've been getting pizza and watching a movie as a family every Saturday night for years. When my mom got stomach cancer last year, we started going to coffee together Saturday evenings prior to picking up the pizza. He wanted to get me out of the house and distract me. We talked about everything -- our love for the British television show "Doctor Who"; my plans for the future (I'm studying to be an animator); his plans for the various science fiction…
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Added by Cat Bailey on August 8, 2009 at 9:52pm —
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My dad is the most wonderful person in the world. We shared everything. We like all the same movies, books, food ... . I knew I was always first in his mind. He was always concerned if I wasn't happy, and he tried everything to fix my problems should they arise. He made time to talk with me, and he was never angry if I disrupted him. I would scratch his back at night, and we would talk into the wee hours of the morning. He would always say, "I know I don't want this to end, but you should get…
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Added by Cat Bailey on August 7, 2009 at 12:00pm —
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I recently lost my sister about a month ago. She died from complications of a heart defect she was born with. She would have been 42 in three weeks. I can't sleep and I have nightmares about her death. She was not only my sister but my best friend. my heart feels like it has been torn in two and I feel like she took a part of me with her. Everyone keeps telling me that she is in a better place and I know that but it doesn't help me. At times i feel like I can't even catch my breath that i miss…
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Added by ginger darlene masters on August 5, 2009 at 7:24pm —
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I lost my dad on June 11, 2009. He died one day before his 72nd birthday. He drove to the hospital for surgery to remove a possible cancerous spot on his kidney and while they were operating had a massive stoke and never really woke up. I am really having a hard time dealing with the loss of my dad. We are a very close family and I spoke to or saw my dad every day. Not only am I trying to figure out how to deal with my grief I am trying to help my daughter who is 6 and my 2 1/2 year old son.…
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Added by Cindy Giron on July 27, 2009 at 7:23pm —
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