Today as i drove home i repeated the phrase my sister is dead my sister is dead. I still can't belive that i will never see her again on Earth, that i will never every get to talk to her again on Earth. i don't understand how to not miss her. i need her! i really do not have any one to talk to my husband does not understand and my mom and dad are griving too. my best frined is gone/dead. who can i call and tell all my dumb stuff to? you will listen or what to listen? i am lost and i need to find my way back. i now relize the importance of telling the ones that you love that you love them, always be kind, and it truley does not matter the size of your house, the clothes that you wear, the money you have in the bank, becuse all that is is stuff and stuff can be replaced but people, kindness, love and understanding cant be. imust love my husband more i must treat him better. i must be a better mom. i must be a better daughter, i must be a better christian. my sis was a great kind and wonderful person who always thought of others before herself. i wish she was here, i feel her spirti around me but i need/want more. i love her and i will treasue every minuete we spent together. she new how much i loved her. she is our angle. i love you dawn and i will see you agin one day in heaven but for now i must raise my children and see their children grown. i will take care of mom and dad and darin. i will take care of michael and conner and rick. i will care for steve.