I lost my dad on June 11, 2009. He died one day before his 72nd birthday. He drove to the hospital for surgery to remove a possible cancerous spot on his kidney and while they were operating had a massive stoke and never really woke up. I am really having a hard time dealing with the loss of my dad. We are a very close family and I spoke to or saw my dad every day. Not only am I trying to figure out how to deal with my grief I am trying to help my daughter who is 6 and my 2 1/2 year old son. This morning I had a splinter in my finger and my son asked my if I was going to die. I had to pause for a moment. I reassured him that I would not die from a splinter and was not going to leave him. If my husband or I go anywhere he crys and asks us over and over if we are coming back. My daugther really wants to talk about granddad and I am having a hard time talking without crying. I know they need to know that crying is part of the healing process but it really upsets both of them. The way I feel and act really does affect my kids and husband. I need to find a way to deal with my grief without pushing my family and faith away.