The sun will be coming up soon. As yet I've not gone to bed. What is the use when I can't sleep. The last time I went to the doctor he gave me something to help with that, but so far it hasn't done a thing. So most nights find me in front of my computer, a lot of times just staring into space.
One week from today and it will be Irene's 35th birthday. I wonder what she would look like. Would the tiny lines around her eyes be starting to show? Would she still have that long, long hair or…
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Added by Katherine Ellis on May 12, 2009 at 5:34am —
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You think I've gone far away and life has lost its will,
But look around, I am right here, living with you still,
I watch your tears, I feel your pain, I see the things you do,
I weep as well, each time you cry, my soul it lives with you.
It gives me such joy to hear you laugh, and do the things you do,
And when you smile over bygone days, I smile right there with you,
For we are still one, just you and me, one mind, one soul, one being,
Walking forward into…
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Added by Gail Richardson on May 10, 2009 at 4:47pm —
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What a bitter sweet day it is today. I'm trying to be happy for those still here by me, but my heart is heavy because my daughter, Irene is not here. What I wouldn't give to see her smile, hear her laughter just once more. Feel her arms around me for one more hugs. For all of us this is a hard day. I am praying for everyone as we walk through this day. I know that I am not alone. I have all of you. God bless you all and we shall make it through today, for we are all holding hearts and hands,
Added by Katherine Ellis on May 10, 2009 at 10:37am —
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A SALUTE TO MOMS ABLE TO CARRY ON
BY: Erma Bombech
May 13, 1995
If you’re looking for an answer this Mothers Day on why god reclaimed your child, I don’t know.
I only know that thousands of mothers out there desperately need an answer as to why they were permitted to go through the elation of carrying a child and then lose it to miscarriage, accident, violence, disease, or drugs.
Motherhood isn’t just a series of contractions; it’s a state of mind.…
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Added by Gail Richardson on May 10, 2009 at 5:01am —
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I wrote this poem about a week ago with help from God.
When I heard about you son
My devestation was immense
How would I ever live without you
The thought was too intense
I remember when I was pregnant
And thrilled but nervous too
I remember every day
Just waiting to meet you
I remember dreaming of the future
What would you grow up to be
If only I could tell you
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Added by Stacey on May 9, 2009 at 9:52pm —
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dear friend i hope that your other friends know what a caring and loving person u are i think that it is wonderful you became such a caring friend thru the net i would think it might be a little easyier because of not having a personal contact with this person but it gives me great hope that i may find a friend that i can be that close with over the net may god bless you and lend u some comfort in your time of need (((((hugs)))))
Added by Robert Tinsley on May 2, 2009 at 7:45am —
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I watered the morning glories in the butterfly garden I started in the spring. It won't be long until they are blooming beautiful blue breakfast plates with soft pink throats. I planted them because they are Jack's favorite flower. While I was talking to Jack's big sister this evening, I told her about the little garden and she asked, "Do you think he knows?"
"About the garden?" I want to believe that he does.
"Well. That, yes. But. Do you think he knows how much I miss…
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Added by Margaret R. on April 30, 2009 at 7:14pm —
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Hi, Just wondering if anyone else has or has thought of establishing a private cemetery?
We have- It took a year of red tape- or rather a year for me to do all the leg work, etc etc. due to the local supervisors not having answers- although supportive.
At any rate - a year after my sons passing we brought him home, to our family resting place.
I understand this isn't for everyone however it has helped me & our family. And when we had Brad moved home, our priest lead us…
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Added by Kar on April 29, 2009 at 7:40am —
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Before you read any further, take a look at the image below. What does it invoke in you? Happy childhood memories, memories maybe of a favourite dessert? It makes me smile for an entirely different reason...explained below.
You see...banoffee pie, in a roundabout way, was my first contact with Chris. There was a celebration going on on the George Harrison forum for his birthday (64th, I think...) Anyway, we were having a kind of…
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Added by Shady Wilbury on April 27, 2009 at 3:40pm —
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2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you…
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Added by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on April 27, 2009 at 3:10am —
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I couldn't beleive the support that I have recieved so far when I logged on today. In the death of our daughter I keep telling myself that we were lucky to have such a special relationship with her from the time she was young until the she was taken away from us. But that doesn't really help. The hole that is left in my heart is much to large to heal. I have more bad days than good. My family say I should get over it. Are they right? It has been almost 8 years now. The support I received here…
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Added by Katherine Ellis on April 26, 2009 at 5:54pm —
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Hi, My name is Karen...
I come here with a very heavy heart, Heavy for the life our 16 yr old son never got to finish, Heavy for my family, heavy for I am destroyed , and heavy knowing that this site is full of others out there feeling such similar pain.
I find it so hard to connect with others - in - lets say real world "that wonderful place I use to know"
When life was wonderful with light hearted fun & full of our children's smiles.
I find it so…
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Added by Kar on April 26, 2009 at 4:14pm —
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I wrote this account on what must have been a "good" day. I was obviously thinking straight. I can't think of any other reason why I'd be able to sit and type it in one. It tells the story of the final week of Chris' life, from my point of view.
April
In order to tell this story with the respect that it deserves, I must state that there were good times before the part where the real story begins. Before April 3, 2007, it was paradise. Life was good for me, and I didn't…
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Added by Shady Wilbury on April 26, 2009 at 1:58pm —
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Hello, all.
I came here because I lost a dear friend to cancer in April 2007. Although I only knew her through an Internet forum (which one doesn't
really matter, but it was a George Harrison forum) she became a close friend of mine, and we exchanged emails and IMs over a period of a year and two weeks. I strongly feel that after two years I should be moving on, but I lack something which I need in order to do so. I'm preoccupied by the memories of the last week of Chris' life…
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Added by Shady Wilbury on April 26, 2009 at 12:09pm —
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Hello,
I'm a new member to the group and I'd like to introduce
Lessons for the Living, a blog for people committed to the idea of hospice and those struggling with grief or loss. Since it goes beyond the concerns of this group, I thought it would be appropriate to host it independently. But there will be many articles you might find helpful.
For the past four years I've been a columnist for the Hospice Volunteer…
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Added by Stan Goldberg, Ph.D. on April 26, 2009 at 9:55am —
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Greetings Everyone,
I have come here hoping to find some peace. I not only lost a daughter, but I lost my best friend. Irene was 27 year and 29 days old when she died in front of us that day. Her anniversary is coming up in June but her birthday was in May so this time of year gets hard for me. On top of that my husband had cancer and we're just getting through that. I'm feeling so alone and drepressed so I thought I'd like to reach out and see what happens. This will be the 8th year…
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Added by Katherine Ellis on April 26, 2009 at 2:10am —
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I don't have the words to write, but I miss my mom terribly. I know she is with Jesus now and happier than she ever has been, never to cry or hurt again, but it's hard to not be able to ask her how it is! I want to hear her tell me about what she's been up to and how she's feeling and what she did today and what she has going on tomorrow! I want to hear her say I love you. I want her to be able to hear me and tell me everything is okay and share with me encouragement and understanding like she…
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Added by Katrina Moore on April 24, 2009 at 9:17pm —
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my family is probably the most messed up in the world well i guess everyone feels that way.I have a sisiter who is an alcholic and a brother who is a meth addict i care for my bed ridden grandmother and my uncle who has cancer and aa stroke in a wheelchair with no help from his kids and my mother who just lost my dad and is going thru the grief process as well as batteling both of my siblings for what they feel like they deserve.then after all this in my life i have to find time to grieve…
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Added by Robert Tinsley on April 24, 2009 at 12:24pm —
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she passed away alone, in PA. we are all from nj, but after a divorce and financial issues she went to PA. i brought her to the bus station to go there. i even bought her the ticket because i didn't have anywhere for her to stay, i was living with my boyfriend at that time. this causes most of my guilt. i feel like, if i had just kept her here, and helped her, she would be alive right now. my mom was troubled. she was the smartest woman i will ever know, but she kept falling harder. it seemed…
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Added by nicole baumann on April 23, 2009 at 11:25pm —
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truth is this everything you ever done good or bad and you know everything about yourself after a loss of magnitude you were never willing to except you or i should say I have great difficulty inthinking of everything i ever could have done different its to late so it just seems to build on your mind and weigh you down maybe it should have been different but it wasnt so is that my fault or just life u tell me
Added by Robert Tinsley on April 23, 2009 at 4:22pm —
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