Remembering back to the day she died is like a brilliant flash of light. Barb died of a massive heart attack brought on by complications from Type 2 diabetes. To me, diabetes is a very …

Maybe I'm strange. I enjoy my memories.  Granted, it's tough and time is making it a little easier, but I think that it is only because I am learning how to "behave" when I remember.  I felt extremely lucky to have my hunny for the extra year and a half that I got. He died in the ambulance at his accident and if his C1 had chipped 1 mm the other way, he would've died or been paralyzed. Even though that year and a half was hard--I was caregiver for 5 months while he grew in strength and…

It's been a month since my partner passed away. I found that talking to people helped me. Today, my Airbnb host gave me an insight that I haven't thought about before we had this conversation. He said that everyone eventually passes away. That is the natural course of life. It is the untimely death of the person that makes it harder to accept this reality. My partner was 40 years old when he passed away. I had many plans before he had cancer. In my mind, we will grow old together. In my…

Psalm 121New Living Translation (NLT)

Psalm 121

A song for pilgrims ascending to Jerusalem.

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My Mommy died on Saturday, February 25, 2017 at 2:30 P.M. It was the most devastating day of my entire life. I knew her death was certain because she'd had two strokes on both sides of her brain a year apart. It was expected, but never real until the moment it happened. I was asleep when she died. I woke up the minute to the hour she passed on. The movie While You Were Sleeping was my favorite movie of all time, so it is ironic really.

Around midnight I went out on the porch.…

ever sisne iv had so mush loss i feal lk my lifs bean 1 big crash u cdy u cud say so mush loss in 2012 wz bad thn 2013 14 15 16 17 it tims i feal lk im jinx  i do i no its in my hed iv loss nuber of funrels iv bean 2 ovr lst 5 yrs evry 1 difrnt 

sad thng is only tim i sea famly 

 shawn I miss you so bad, I cry all the time, my depression is worse, god how I pray every night to die, to hold you again.   I love you always and forever   mom

In Gods care.

The Day I'll Finally Stop Grieving

“How long has it…

So today I literally can not breathe, I feel totally consumed with longing and needing him so much, god I wished he knew how much I need him, he's the only person that can make this go away, I want him back so much I've just had a terrible week. I'm 43, how am I gonna do this for years and years when I'm struggling to hold on. Since I woke up this morning all I can think about is the first time we kissed, it was 20 years ago but I remember it like it was yesterday, it just popped in my mind…

im strest i am plsd dnt hav a go or juge me wored abot mom coz of th big goin arnd evry 1 iv gt it shes got bt shes got it shes so frale im wored coz of it iv had so mush loss so mush bad piss or shit goin on plsd dnt be mad it me 

evry 1 i luv bad thnfs hapen 2htm sisne lozin my dad iv seam 2 loss pepelor thy get sic evry days thy do its lk im  a jinx i am i am a  jinx i no i am 

dad  dieds getin betr frm a strioke he wz i thrt grt im getin my dad vac agan i am wong he wz…