My goal for us all is to make it a good week!!  Let's all do it together!

It's great to have you all to be in touch with!  Don't you wish time would hurry so the grief could lift.

Time goes fast, but with grief it seems so slow.

Thank you all, you all inspire me and help me to get motivated.

Michael

Today I have been going through pictures.. I've started a scrapbook.. I keep looking for Dad's pictures just to see his smile.. I miss how he would give me a grin when Mom would get after him for something.. Or when I would do something stupid just to make him laugh.. I miss walking through the door and hearing him say my name making sure it was me coming in. Mom has made us go through his things and move everything out of his bedroom and it kills me. I wanted to keep it for a little while…

A poem I wrote a few months ago when a friend was at a loss how to help, unfortunately she is not in contact with me now, she couldn't watch me in pain. I know its hard to see someone you love in pain.

How can I help?

Sometimes the right words are hard to find

but its ok to listen, I don't mind

sometimes its hard to know what to do

but you know, its just good to be with you…

I know that a lot of you have lost loved ones to tragedies like my experience nearly was and must have wondered how your loved ones felt if they knew they were going to die. I guess maybe everyones reactions may be different but felt to share my story and how I felt when I knew I was going to die. I hope it may help in some way.

When I was 11 I was out at sea with my dinghy when a massive freak wave came towards me, I wasn't sure what to do whether to try and ride it or try and get to…

We are not here to suffer, we were not put here to suffer, so let the light shine in and shine on you and your families and your lives!   I believe our loved ones are in the sunshine, in the rain, in the air, and just basically in nature.  They have become a greater and more beautiful part of this world, part of us all!

Life is a continuous process...it never ends!

And Psssst...I'll let you in on a little secret!  They stop by in your dreams, speak to you, caress you, and out…

If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried...
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried...
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.

I miss my Mommy oh so much

But I visit her each day

When she goes to sleep

On her pillows where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

And whisper in her ear

Mommy don't be sad today

I'm your baby and I am here"



So you see my dear sweet one

Your children are okay

Your babies are here in My home

And this is where they'll stay

They'll wait for you with Me

Until your lessons are through

And on the day you come…

AND GOD SAID



I said, "God, I hurt."

And God said, "I know."



I said, "God, I cry a lot."

And God said, "That is why I gave you tears."



I said "God, I am so depressed."

And God said, "That is why I gave you Sunshine."



I said, "God, life is so hard."

And God said, "That is why I gave you loved…

I live each day with you in my heart

and you're always on my mind

All of my happy thoughts of you

Help to lighten up the grind

I look at grief, then I look at you

and can see it's not so bad

This grief doesn't even measure up

to all the good times we had

I keep a big umbrella

It opens up like wings

They fly me to a far away place

Where I can see all things

I close my eyes and see a light

That makes me…

Our little boy Nicholas, sleeping beside mommy

Was just waking up to play

You couldn't wake your mommy up you said

On that very dreadful day

You were with her alone at home

A debt no child should have to pay

I wish that I could have been there

before they carried your mommy away

Every morning now when he gets up

he has the same words to say

"Dad, I know you miss mom, I miss her too,

but it will be okay!"

This…

Thought I would share with you another poem I wrote,

The lifeline of love

We were knitted together as one

it was you that was my lifeline

until death came and took you away

and snapped right through our strong twine

Now I am falling so very fast

no lifeline with which to save me

I never thought the line would…

I had My Daddy Terry, for 25 years and for some reason I feel it was not long enough. I have so much anger, hurt, guilt, and pain built up. I know he went to heaven but it is still so ha