Today I fel the loss of you greatly. It is hard to imagine that you are not here. When I wake up, it takes a moment to realize I will never see you again. It's hard to know that I can not share my day and get your loving answers and support that I so looked forward to. Today, I felt more like joining you than ever. They say I may not go to the same place that you are, but the emptiness and lonliness that you left behind are almost too much to bear. I do not have many people I can share with my grief with. Few people i can share my memories, both good and bad with. I do not understand why the gods needed to take you away from me. I have already lost so much,k I don;t think I can recover from this.
You always said I was a surviver, Bur there are certain things even the most steadfast person has trouble with. I just wish I kinew what to do. I grieve for you greatly. I light my candle to you every night in hopes that you know I love you.
I Hope every day that you can give your family some measureof comfort and peace so that I may tell them how the last ten months were.
I would like to share our hopes and dreams, our fantansies and what we accomplished.. I would like them to know that I loved you and that you loved them in turn although you did not necessaryily keep in contact with them. I know How much you loved me and them.