HI Everyone,  I know in grief there are moments of great light and moments of deep and dark despair. I know that I miss my best friend to the very ends of time, but like Michael said, it is not what she wanted for me. Before she died: she made me promise:1) I would walk a 5 K ovarian cancer walk- I will be registering for the one on October 16th, 2011. I'm terrified but I know it will make her proud.2) I promised her - to never ever forget her.3) I promised to talk to her, to come and visit her grave a few times through out the year.4) I promised to make her a birthday cake on her birthday and sing happy birthday.5) I promised to donate her hand made hats to Kids with cancer / homeless kids.6) She wanted me to be successful and happy.
Remember the good times. It hurts like hell, but I can't let her memory linger in sadness. She was not a sad person. She sounded like bubbles on the power puff girls.
I loved her and to keep her memory alive, I must fulfill her promises. I have to go to my converts, knowing in my heart she is watching me and by my side. hard as it is. the hardest part for me this year will be Christmas her all time favorite holiday, as well any future BOn Jovi shows as they were and are still my favorite all time band those future concerts will hurt like hell, but I know she'll be by my side, singing with me.
TO each of you, i hope you find your passion for life, to honor your loved one, and to celebrate their life, to live your own life, but never forget the greatest gift they each left us with. The gift of their love, their friendship, and the strength to carry on without them.
God Bless you all,I hope you find comfort in this message
Sincerely,Anne