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HI Everyone,  I know in grief there are moments of great light and moments of deep and dark despair. I know that I miss my best friend to the very ends of time, but like Michael said, it is not what she wanted for me. Before she died: she made me promise:1) I would walk a 5 K ovarian cancer walk- I will be registering for the one on October 16th, 2011. I'm terrified but I know it will make her proud.2) I promised her - to never ever forget her.3) I promised to talk to her, to come and visit her… Continue

 

Padre Pio National Shrine

 

 I went to the shrine yesterday. It was like Cheryl was pushing me to go. I prayed and talked with Ruthie. She is a true blessing. I thank you every day for encouraging us to go. I told her about Cheryl and I was very upset.…

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Lost and regret are two words I really hate. I lost my best friend. I regret the times I won't have her here with me. I miss her every damn day. I feel like i'm not whole any more. That the things that matter don't because she's not here.

 

I regret all the stupid fighting we did over nonsense. I loved her from very core. We were sisters, and best friends. 

 

I know that our love and friendship while now separated in death, will never die, but God it hurts so…

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God help me tonight. My heart hurts so much. I love'd rosie with everything. I'm lost. I come  home and talk to her parents, and we share stories, and how much we all loved her, and miss her. I just at times don't know what to do.

 

I miss her laughter, and chatter, I miss the simple companionship we shared. I don't know what else to do. I'm feeling very sad lately.

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