I went to the shrine yesterday. It was like Cheryl was pushing me to go. I prayed and talked with Ruthie. She is a true blessing. I thank you every day for encouraging us to go. I told her about Cheryl and I was very upset. Ruthie said from Cheryl: that I had to stop crying, that I would achieve and be given everything I wanted. She said that she's not suffering any more and that the illness was too much for her. She said that Padre Pio escorted her into heaven. I had a picture of her on my phone, and I showed her. She remembered her. She told me to stop the sickness and for me not to get sick with Diabetes. She knew. I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday for this reason. I feel so much better. She said not to worry about my test on Monday, or any tests that I will pass and I must remain strong in my faith. She said Cheryl is not alone but waiting for us, and surrounded by all the people who love us both who have passed on.  She made me promise to come back in a month or so to see her again and let her know who I am doing. 

I can't say what a relief it was to speak to her, and how my heart feels lighter, and I feel more a peace. I miss her terribly but I know she wants  me to be successful and happy and Cheryl is now my angel and will guide me.

I am in training for my first 5 K walk and it won't be the last one. I just have to wrap a few things at work that have kept me so busy that I can't concentrate at home, and begin something in Cheryl's honor. I'm gong to keep  making her hats for cancer kids, and for homeless kids and donate them. I just have to have the time.

I am also going to cross stitch a photo of us, with some of our favorite Bon Jovi items and wear to every concert I go to so that She'll be with me.  I may even get a tattoo of a daisy with her name in her memory because I promised I wouldn't ever forget her.