Another victum impact. My mother was stabbed to death april 11,1989. He knocked on her door said he had a sick child and was locked out of his apartment. he came in pulled a knife out my mother was heard saying take what you wantbut please don't hurt me. he slashed her face multiple defensive wounds. He stopped and ate had a cigarette. back then dna was real new so the case got shoved in a box. the law now saysall felonies must give a dna sample. They found the guy. For the next year…

I feel like my life is one huge waiting game. spent 2 years to find a closure to Bills death. Than derek Passing a year and a half later. Another waiting game. The kid that hit him has been going through the judicial system. watching my surving son eric hurting over the loss of his big brother and his twin.  all the tears we have had for them. the kid to a blind plea so a judge will decied  on his punishment they are capping his jail term to 5.5 years. This kid killed one and critical…

I feel like I have spent three years in a stunned stupor. My oldest son passed nov.22,2009. its coming up on thanksgiving this year. Its an emotional time. but I lost my little twin a year and a half ago. with the first one I learmed about wrongful death. there was no justice for bill. Derek was killed too this time there will be justice. He was doing community service with the dept of natural resources. he was sitting with two co workers on and front loader taking a break and sitting in the…

At this point and time I thank the lord for making me into a strong women. I am a private mourner. I have the strength to walk away from arguments. Losing two sons so close together. has been a living hell. I am on some really strong meds to help me cope with it all. My heart is shattered, I refuse to let other people get to me i don't explain my meds either. So they think I am a bipolar bitch thats fine, my finances too. i am refusing to raise my voice and have a screaming match over thing…

I don't understand any of this any more. I raised four children on my own. Now twoof them are gone I don't why i haven't drowned in tears. then it is how I think of nobody but myself. I know I have to move forward. Thats easior said then done. my boyfriend moved out,  He had cancer surgery 6 weeks after derek died.  The doctor has given me alot of pills to help cope with all this. Its a tool not a cure. to bad it isn't a magic cure and take all the hurt away. I honestly think I have lost my…

I feel frozen in place. Life is going 

i need to vent. For those of us who have lost children, husbands etc. this is to the living.  I am still grieving my losses. You didn't go through this ordeal. I know its almost three since the first one and a little over a year since the second one. I did not need the man in my life to have been diagnosed with cancer. that came a week after the funeral  than pretend nothing happened we are supposed to go back to our jobs and suck it up.  the man in my life left last week I think that I am…

I have had three sudden and tragic deaths. My mother answered her door to help a stranger. that stranger pulled out a knife and stabbed her to death.  her face was slashed. she was found by her boss when she didn't show up for work.that was april 11,1989.  20 years later they finally put him away for 65 years. we were happy and releived we could put mom to rest. November 22, 2009 I lost my oldest son.he was 32 and on a bicycle was hit by a big pick up.my heart is in a million peices. I think…

i am livid  i have lost two sons to traumatic sudden deaths.  yesterday  some one called them my dead kid.  i am so angry over it.  was a coworker at one time  i am a cna, caregiver,etc. told me about a place that needed help.  long story short the job and I are not compatable. Than the person who hired me pulled me from the job that was ok. what really ticked me off is when the coworker called me.  I talked to much about my dead kid. i am having alot of anger issues.   Friday my oldest son…