I feel like I have spent three years in a stunned stupor. My oldest son passed nov.22,2009. its coming up on thanksgiving this year. Its an emotional time. but I lost my little twin a year and a half ago. with the first one I learmed about wrongful death. there was no justice for bill. Derek was killed too this time there will be justice. He was doing community service with the dept of natural resources. he was sitting with two co workers on and front loader taking a break and sitting in the bucket when a kid high on meth slammed into the tractor and ejected them. there was a flat bed work truck derek got brunt head injury killed him but he landed on the hood of the car as it was going under the truck and crushed him.  not dealing real well. i have been watching the court proceedings on line. Most days I don't know what day it is. tomarrow is pretrial I am going.  The most time he will get is 13 years. today i was chatting with oneof my neighbors and her husband is a friend. I know dui is automatic jail time. this kid is facing 6 counts of aggrevated dui two class 2 and four class 4. thaen I heard he is illegal. the car was his fathers and had no insurance he named in the inditements too. I feel very sorry for his mother, they had a daughter die by a drunken driver. she lost one and she is going to see her son in handcuffs. derek left a child behind his son just turned 3 without his dad. that breaks my heart. all these events has effected every part of my life. my boyfriend left he couldn't deal with it. said I changed after derek died. I stay an emotional wreck  . I moved to another place and making an effort to moveforward. the doctor is giving me pills.  but I can't get passed the tears.