It has been 15 months since my daughter Denise has passed away. I wake up every morning and wanting to call her like we did every day. She was so full of life and she had everything going for her.She left behind two beautiful  young children.   Denise died of E-Coli. She was not aware that this poison was in her system, while Septic shock  spread  throughout her body very quickly and shut down all her organs,  Denise lived in California ,  while I lived in Florida. so I was not aware how bad…

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The pain of grief is awful.  We may understand that the body needs to process grief to help us move on, but the question exists...Can we speed it up a little so it doesn't hurt so much?



The answer is Yes and No.  The pain of grief must be felt an experienced to be free from it.  The truth is, the faster you fully experience it, the quicker you'll have more 'non-grieving' periods that you can live your life.  So,…

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Apologue:

~ Little Bird ~

Let me preface this by saying from the time my daughter was a year

old, all those close to her called her by her nickname "Bird". It

suited her to a Tee, because she was forever chirping and flitting

about, always so trusting and full of joy. This is what happened 6

months after she passed away...

It was just a few days after I'd moved in to a new house when the

most curious thing…

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 I have been married 34 yr. My wife is from Taiwan. I met her in New Mexico. 5 to 7 yrs ago she had to have dialysis. In the past year or 2 she has has had problems. One time she had a cardiac arrest. In the past month she went back in the hosp with heart problms. The hosp put in a pace maker and new heart valves.Since all this was done she had blood pressure problems which became more severe and breathing problems the breathing improved but then went bad. She developed some sort of…

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I heard humming upstairs,

like a moth against a screen.

I thought it was you;

I ran up towards the sound, a

pillow of warm expectations

clutched inside my pounding heart.

It was not you.

A fallen Christmas bulb

circled around wooden floors

singing in bright colors with

dancing, bouncing bells

I heard glasses of peppermint

martinis clink together,cheer in the

next room at a holiday…

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And the days seem to get longer

As the nights stay the same

I wish I could see your face…

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Life is getting easier, now that I've come to terms with the fact that I've still got one. My kids are coping, and I'm coping. We've started picking up the pieces by just bending over and doing it!

I've got school and employment in the pipeline, I've started repairing my credit so we can someday buy a house. I've started reinstating my authority with my children and acting as head of household. We have our bills paid, we have food in the kitchen, and we have lots of time in…

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My husband and I were meant to be together. We knew the moment we met. We moved in together after two month's of dating, and married after two years of living together. We had one child together, and each had children from previous relationships, but we were all a family. I was so proud, am so proud, of my husband. He was the most intelligent man I'd ever known, next to my father. He was beautiful, charming, funny, an amazing father, and held a successful career. We had Sixteen fantastic…

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Hello. I'm new to the group and am feeling my way around the site. I lost my mother five years ago and the most recent, and main reason for joining this community, I lost the love of my life and best friend, my boyfriend, Brian. This happen on April 16th of this year so it's only been a little over two months. He hit head-on a delivery box truck and flipped over several times. He died on impact, which helps a little bit because I know he didn't suffer or experience any pain. Still, I'm having a… Continue