Life is getting easier, now that I've come to terms with the fact that I've still got one. My kids are coping, and I'm coping. We've started picking up the pieces by just bending over and doing it!

I've got school and employment in the pipeline, I've started repairing my credit so we can someday buy a house. I've started reinstating my authority with my children and acting as head of household. We have our bills paid, we have food in the kitchen, and we have lots of time in front of us, to continue to heal, and move our lives forward. My children have fantastic futures ahead of them, and it's my job to help them get there. I know now, that I can do this! One step at a time...

For those that are still asking "how do I survive?", my answer is; you just DO! It's not easy, and the guilt you feel over everything you didn't do, and say, is miserable, and makes you feel as though there is no way to go on. But, it will subside over time. You're life will be as easy or as difficult as you allow it to be. Keep moving ahead and it will get easier! I promise! You have no choice but to remember your loved one, and remember what you had planned with him/her and continue as planned. You can do it!

Updates to come!

April a.k.a. "half a soul"