oh god how I miss you, my tears never stop. I want so much to hold you in my arms. I want more to be with you.  my beautiful son  im waiting to go home with you. im not afraid, im so ready. I love you always and forever  mom

I pray and wish every night my heart would stop, to take away my pain. so I can be with you and be happy again, please shawn hear my crys  I love you always and forever   mom

my heart hurts so bad, tears tears tears, every day. I miss my son so much, what gave him the right to go without me? why did he leave me here alone? and how long must I stay here without him.  oh god how it hurts, I need to be with shawn, I need to hold my baby.  I don't want to live any morei want my shawn,

I prayed so hard that  Friday would not come, my b day without you is so very hard, alice my counceller said you are here and I know you will be. I know what you will be saying to me to make me laugh, but my tears still fall, my heart still broken, we don't celebrate anything any more without you, its just so hard to not hear you say  you love me, to say mom, I know in my heart you are here helping me, please help me get through tomorrow, and help  me to feel you here.  always and forever…

most of the time it hurts to breathe, to go on without my son. where do all my tears come from, I cry so much, I hurt so bad. I beg and beg you to take me to my son, but im left here to suffer so bad so much. I know in my heart ill be with  you soon, im so lonely without my shawn.  so very very broken,