I prayed so hard that  Friday would not come, my b day without you is so very hard, alice my counceller said you are here and I know you will be. I know what you will be saying to me to make me laugh, but my tears still fall, my heart still broken, we don't celebrate anything any more without you, its just so hard to not hear you say  you love me, to say mom, I know in my heart you are here helping me, please help me get through tomorrow, and help  me to feel you here.  always and forever mom