I took 2 grandsons to our local boys hockey game tonight.  My granddaughter was working at it and we were having a sleepover anyway so it was logical to go.  It was a good game, home team won, hurray!  But someone was so evidently missing from the seat beside me.  Oh how it hurts to be doing these things without him.  The grandsons should have had their Papa there cheering as loudly as they were or as he was prone to do, cheering for the opposing team just to get a rise out of them.  I know…

Today it snowed here in Omaha, I was walking on a snow covered asphalt trail, and when I stopped to look behind me, I saw about 100 or so of my footprints...I thought, those are in the past.  I looked down at my feet and then along the path ahead of me, and it was pure white, no prints at all.  That path, that pure one is the now and future, the one behind me is the past, I said to myself.  So, i just kept on going, thinking about how far I have come from bad grief and into better grief.  We…

Well I haven't been on here for a long time.can't belive she is gone.I feel sick to my stomach alot and depressed but continue to put 1 foot in front of the other. I do go to support groups with my husband at Hospice.That also helps but I fell nothing will ever take away the saddness I have in my heart..

I am becoming to realize that its just the "two" of us.

Yesterday, I took my son to the park. I got him on a swing when a couple (mother & father) along with their baby approached me and got their baby on the other swing. I am pushing my son and they are pushing theirs. They are all laughing and enjoying each other and their baby. I felt so lonely and uncomfortable. I realized that now it was just my son and myself. No more of my husband, No more Dad to my son. It felt like an…

Sunrise doesn't last all morning

I have been feeling sad since Thanksgiving. I was busy with cousins on Thanksgiving and the night following, but eating the leftovers I brought home has made me feel lonely. I always brought the leftovers to Ken's house and we ate them together. They would have been gone sooner than just me eating them. Although he broke up with me a several times, we were always together Thanksgiving weekend. Not always on the holiday itself, but for the weekend. And I am really missing him not being here…

Listen to nature and your heart!.  

Healing isn't far away.........

Michael

To  everyone    its    going  on  3 years     for my  mom  being gone  and  i  still  miss her dearly.  daring     this  christmas season    even  more ..... all  i   do  is  think  back   as  i was a child  and    growing  up   i  give thanks    for  her   to  get  me   out   of  the  fostor  home    bcause    it   was  a   great  life   she  had  with  me  for  83 years  .    as i  find  my   self weeping   again   and    knowing  she is in a  t   there   sure   will not  better place   …

I lost my mom on Sept 23rd,2011 to End stage liver cancer. I guess the best way to describe how I feel is that the day she died, a piece of me did too. I feel so hollow without her. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be 31 years old without a mother. I have 3 small children  12,8,4 . I feel like a little kid that has been left in the store, forgotten or something. I feel so alone without her, she was my best friend. I am trying this online support group out, in the hopes that I…

I am thankful for what i have. I am thankful for having a beatiful son, Sebastian, who is the result of the strong love my husband and I shared. I am thankful for Sebastian looking exactly the same as his daddy. I am thankful for having food to eat, a sweater to wear, a bed to sleep in, and a beatiful and most amazing/supportive mother. But can't help to think and shift my mind more towards all of the things I no longer have. I dont have my father here with me. I dont have my husband either…

We are only human. That's what I resort to when things get rough.

I give myself a break for being human, having grief, ups and downs, and just about anything else!

I figure if I didn't have these weaknesses I might as well wear a red cape and fly around and rescue people from criminals and other misfits! 

And being only human is a real tiny thing compared to the universe and especially beyond that!

It's astounding how a bad thing like grief feels so huge,…

I lost my husband of 30 yrs this past Feb..Iam having a very hard time accepting that he is gone and that I have to take baby steps to go forward and Iam trying...I visited his grave today as I know Thanksgiving Day would be too hard for me as its 35min. away from here and i didn't want to be on the road crying...our first thanksgiving not together I know I have to get thru this but my God it hurts so bad...any encouragement from you all will be helpful....sorry

paulette…

i have not been able to stop my tears since this morning. i hear, see all of the emotion in others for the holidays to come. i feel envy for those happy family's hosting dinners, getting together and looking forward to spending the holidays together. However, I must admitt, i too, was there just last year.

I cant help to see elderly grandfather's holding their grandchildren, or playing with them at the park. How i wish my father was here to do the same with my son. I see a young…

My husband died last January 1st and this holidays are coming and surviving them is all I can think about.

There are so many things that disturb me at this point.  Having my house renovated and some workman are so inappropriate.  I have to put men in there place when they get personal.  I am not comfortable with any type of flattery right now.  Most people understand and back off but there are a few who just seemed annoyed.

Anyway it was one of those days and it wasn't…

I have tried and tried to find a dang  job, walked all over town today being sick with 102.1 temp. Still nothing out there bills are going to be due I personally, want to give up. I have nowhere to turn to get rent money and power bill money,F$^&$ everything I AM SO FREAKING DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ..... What else is there left to do? Still sicker then a dog, and worried about everything, I seriously need a miracle in itself. Lord if you are listening please please help me find a job and a…

I was busy today, bathed the animals, brushed them all out which is a  huge job with 1 himilayan cat, 1 maltese, 2 poodle crosses.  After everyone was blown dry and looking good we played inside for awhile before one of the dogs, the 4 year old foster Ive only had for a month started to dance around letting me know she wanted to go outside.  It was great, she was not good in the house when I got her so this was a giant step for her.  As I was bouncing and clapping and humming in excitement…

We have to know what to expect for the holidays, and that would be pain from

that empty space of whose missing.  It's important to have someone to share the pain

with, if not a friend or family member, there are various support groups like this On LIne 

Grief Support, or churches, libraries, and others available in your community.

The holidays were always comforting and frustrating for me, but this year will definitely be challenging and painful.  We just have to…