I am thankful for what i have. I am thankful for having a beatiful son, Sebastian, who is the result of the strong love my husband and I shared. I am thankful for Sebastian looking exactly the same as his daddy. I am thankful for having food to eat, a sweater to wear, a bed to sleep in, and a beatiful and most amazing/supportive mother. But can't help to think and shift my mind more towards all of the things I no longer have. I dont have my father here with me. I dont have my husband either because he was taken away from me by someone else's wrongdoing. I just dont know how to handle this pain and loneliness i am carrying inside my heart. I have trouble adapting to this new life without my husband here by my side to hug me. For the past 12 years, every year for Thanksgiving Dinner, one of the many things i was thankful for, was for having my beatiful husband, who loved me deeply, and cared for me so much. Today, i am no longer thankful for that...