how can it be 3 years today, it feels like yesterday. my tears still fall everyday. I love and miss you so very much. I need you  shawn I always have. im so dead inside, so empty and dark. my life is over, im waiting for you to come get me, please hurry I cant go on much longer. always and forever   mom

how can it be 3 years on Saturday? it feels like yesterday when you went away. my beautiful son shawn. I miss you so bad . you are and always will be the love of my life forever. my depression is getting worse, I pray each night to die, to hold you forever. to hear your voice and to hear  MOM I LOVE YOU  again.  I tried to be with you but it did not work. I wont give up shawn, im coming home with you. my life is over the day you went away. im ready ,  I don't want to suffer any more, I don't…