I was busy today, bathed the animals, brushed them all out which is a  huge job with 1 himilayan cat, 1 maltese, 2 poodle crosses.  After everyone was blown dry and looking good we played inside for awhile before one of the dogs, the 4 year old foster Ive only had for a month started to dance around letting me know she wanted to go outside.  It was great, she was not good in the house when I got her so this was a giant step for her.  As I was bouncing and clapping and humming in excitement…

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I found this today and it is worth sharing.  I found it validated all of what I have been telling myself and others about letting me do this my way.  I have lived through enough horror in my life I know I needed to trust myself to make the right decisions for me and reading this today was good.  I am going to print a copy off and put it on my fridge.  I hope when you click on the link it takes you to the page written by Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph.D. called Helping yourself heal when your spouse…

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I almost called this part 1 of mission impossible until I realized that I accomplised that in September when I sorted and organized and packed away my husbands home office.  Today I tackled his clothing.  I did ok I think.  There are boxes of  t-shirts, jeans and dress shirts destined to be quilts for kids and grandkids.  There was a bag of winter cloths for my brother who was freezing.  Three bags for good will.  There are still some things I havent figured out yet, like his 10 fleece vests… Continue

                                                                                  My grief is my own

No one else will ever feel exactly what I feel

My grief is a part of me

A refection of my life up until now

I do not grieve as my children grieve for their father

I grieve as a wife for my man

I do not grieve as a mom for a son

I…

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