The tree still sits outside because without you to help put on the lights and drink Eggnog and Rum while I decorate there is no joy.

The gifts are sitting unwrapped in the wardrobe because I wont sign the tags and leave your name off.

No baking is done because who will taste them as they come out of the oven and tell me if they are good or bad.

Our house is the only one on our block without Christmas lights on it because I dont know how to make them all work.

Christmas Cards?  I always made yours first, the kids next.  Making them used to be relaxing but now they are just one more thing that points out the fact you and Karl are GONE.

You were my love, my life, my joy, my partner, my security, my biggest supporter.  Without you  I am an empty shell. 

Last year I did it all because it was the first year and it would get better after all the firsts were done. 

The jokes on me.  The second year I miss you just as much.  I love you just as much.