Article taken from Huffington Post

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/michelle-e-steinke/stifled-grief-how-the-wes_b_10243026.html

how can it be 3 years today, it feels like yesterday. my tears still fall everyday. I love and miss you so very much. I need you  shawn I always have. im so dead inside, so empty and dark. my life is over, im waiting for you to come get me, please hurry I cant go on much longer. always and forever   mom

In the 15 months that Andy has passed I've had many dreams of him, I even partly believe I have even experienced what some people call visitation dreams and also a couple of other strange occurrences, even though I admit too being a total non believer in a so called afterlife before Andy died, I'm finding myself becoming convinced that there is indeed something,  especially after last nights experience,  for the past few days I've been extremely down (well more than usual as I'm always down)…

I believe the following describes grief with all its ups and downs.  It was written by Ceci Frost:

The one thing you can predict when it comes to the journey of grief is that it will be unpredictable. The most random and smallest sound, smell, or sight can push you emotionally. It’s typically when you least expect it. This is when you realize that you have memories—some that you forgot about—that are attached to specific songs,…

how can it be 3 years on Saturday? it feels like yesterday when you went away. my beautiful son shawn. I miss you so bad . you are and always will be the love of my life forever. my depression is getting worse, I pray each night to die, to hold you forever. to hear your voice and to hear  MOM I LOVE YOU  again.  I tried to be with you but it did not work. I wont give up shawn, im coming home with you. my life is over the day you went away. im ready ,  I don't want to suffer any more, I don't…

Billy today is 16 days you have been gone.  No it is not any easier.  I'm still so angry and hurt by all this.  You see you were my world at home and work even though you didn't think so at times.  I'm angry cause I knew you went somewhere Saturday and purchased your whatever the heck it was(dope) and i didn't say anything I didn't even mention it. I found your phone and saw all the text of you purchasing it and from who this made me even angrier. I called this person and confronted them and…