First I had to keep it together for my husband because he had enough to deal with without being worried about me.  Then it was making arrangements and taking care of immediate business that kept me holding on.  But now, nearly 2 months in and Im finally starting to realize how much I have lost.  How much I loved him and didnt mean it when I told him I would be ok.  I am not ok, I will never be ok again.  I dont need anything but for my love to be back here beside me where he belongs.  I will… Continue

Im wondering how long the phone calls for my husband will continue.  He worked with forestry professionals from Alaska to Colorado, BC to Ontario.  There is no way for everyone to get notified of his passing so it seems a few times every week I answer a call from someone who jauntily asks to speak with Tom.  It is horrible to have to tell them he has died.  Most are in shock and ask what happened, expecting me to be able to answer.  Because he worked from home the past 5 years alot of these… Continue