Im wondering how long the phone calls for my husband will continue.  He worked with forestry professionals from Alaska to Colorado, BC to Ontario.  There is no way for everyone to get notified of his passing so it seems a few times every week I answer a call from someone who jauntily asks to speak with Tom.  It is horrible to have to tell them he has died.  Most are in shock and ask what happened, expecting me to be able to answer.  Because he worked from home the past 5 years alot of these people dont realize when they call our phone number that they are reaching his home so they dont know Im his wife.  It used to be funny when those calls came and I would jokingly say I dont take messages or dictation but I do sleep with my boss.  Now it is not funny and it hurts like hell with no way to avoid them.  They come out of the blue which makes it so much worse.  Nothing is easy.........  Everything hurts...........  Life stinks completely.....  I miss my love, my darling Tom, I loved you so friggin much!!!!!!