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My name is Sue. I am a 55 year old divorced 2 years ago. I barely survived that pain and loss (20 year married). Left me for of course, a younger woman. I lost everything. He had been planning his departure for a year.  I am on this wonderful support site because June 7, 2011 my adorable, loving, strong, wonderful best friend and mother Nancy Preston died from complications from chemo therapy (throat cancer). She had been a heavy smoker but quit 20 years ago. Her lungs were…

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Why do I feel like 2 years is too long for me to still feel this way? I still feel just as helpless and hopeless when most people would probably not be "over it" by now but coping a lot better than I am. I still have outbursts of rage more often than I'd like to admit. I still unintentionally make those closest to me suffer with me. I know I will never be "normal" again, but I just wish that I could feel like I've made some sort of progress. Seriously, every day I weigh the option…

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~~~~ My entire life I have always wondered how it would be the day I would find you. Yes I grew up in a great environment... Thanks to you picking out my adopted parents for me. But there has always been an emptiness inside me. I wonder.. did you hold me that day you gave birth to me... before you gave up your rights?? Throughout the years ... did you think of me on my birthday...? Christimas? Any holiday? Did you even remember my birthday or my older sisters' who you gave up as well? Do I get… Continue

Woke up not too long ago and it's already one of those days where I wish I didn't get out of bed. It really sucks when people who live with you kind of get upset or disappointed when you need help with things you wouldn't normally. It makes me feel like such a burden. They just don't understand, I guess. It doesn't make them bad people. Still - I just wish things could go back to normal. I'm accustomed to depression and all the "fun" that comes with it, but this is something that I will…

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This is a beautiful song, and I cry every time I hear it. Listen to it here if you'd like: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N939-xgTBrM

 

 

It's colder than before

The seasons took all they had come for

Now winter dances here

It seems so fitting,…

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  Grief is a strange thing. Everyone grieves at their own pace... in their own time. I was fortunate enough to have my friends, family, and support group around me. 

  Love is also a strange thing. It comes to us, oftentimes, when we least expect it. When we aren't looking for it.

  When Matt died, I thought my world had ended. But in an unfortunate turn of events, I found out many things about him that made it easier for me to pick up the pieces and start moving on. He wasn't…

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6 months after Mom's death, there are still questions.

 

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Today just take 5 minutes at a time.

Today remember to breath.

Change is an adjustment.

Allow yourself time to process.

Write your feelings it helps.

Remember good memories, that make you smile.

Drink sleepy time teas to help you sleep.

Drink water to replace the tears you have cried.

Listen to nature, she can give you answers. 

With love to you, Coach Louise …

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I am still grieving over my fabulous husband, friend and everything to me.  How do I ever stop crying, yearning for him and comparing him to all others.  He was my 2nd marriage and it was perfection from day one.  I am truly lost without him and have to push myself to ever go out and meet new people.  It seems people, relatives, well-meaning persons just can't understand this grief and I have now stopped telling anyone about it.  But, it is still there and I do feel such a loss as to being… Continue

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