Why do I feel like 2 years is too long for me to still feel this way? I still feel just as helpless and hopeless when most people would probably not be "over it" by now but coping a lot better than I am. I still have outbursts of rage more often than I'd like to admit. I still unintentionally make those closest to me suffer with me. I know I will never be "normal" again, but I just wish that I could feel like I've made some sort of progress. Seriously, every day I weigh the option of whether I should just stop living like this or keep going- and the latter does not usually win by much. I guess when everything else in life is falling apart like some sort of screwed up domino effect, it doesn't make things any easier. What really hurts is when people analyze my behavior and say "she's just acting out to get attention." That's just not true. The most positive attention I've gotten about this subject is from you guys here, on a website. In real life, people don't understand and they certainly don't want to try to understand. Maybe if someone would just hug me, the anger wouldn't get so bad...

But I digress. Everyone shouldn't have to suffer with me. I don't know what else to say about it, then.

I hope you guys out there are having a better day than I am.