today I had to  end it with my sister, her heart has turned to stone, week after week hurting me, telling me to get over it, telling me to take pills to be with my son. I told her its a fight everyday not to do that but she said do it , go. im so tired, so much pain and hurt inside.  god help me please. I died the day he took my baby, now just take me to him.  I want my son back,  I need my shawn.

tomorrow june 11 my mom has been gone for 34 years, I can remember it all like it was yesterday. I pray everynight that she has my son, my baby. please god let her tell me she has shawn, I need to know my babys ok, happy and not alone. I beg her to take me to my shawn. I miss them with all my heart. what I would give to hold them both, please mom please help me, take care of my baby   always and forever      all my love

today the girl next door came over to show me her new baby, I could not go out side to see her. all I could do was cry remembering when my beautiful son shawn was born weighing 5 pounds 14 ounces. so beautiful and I knew he was mine forever, never in a million years did I think he would go away and I am alone, empty. my life now is crying and praying to go with him. my heart so broken, its to hard to see people happy, to se new babies, to see life go on. I so hate living waking up each…